imMurderCupcake
"I do not want your help!" i scream at the big group in front of me.
I hated thinking i was weak, but in truth i was, especially with the burden i have been blessed with since i was little.
"You have no choice! We need you to cooperate with us so that things don't get any worse than it has!.' yells the man in front of me across the table.' Mark was just the first to come for you, do you not think the others won't hesitate to find you as well?!"
He had a point but the matter that was in question was something i long forgotten, it was in the past. How could this group expect me to help them when I have no idea what they're talking about?
'You need to give them a chance Murder. They're possibly the only ones who can help keep you from the others.' voices Toby.
This is just great. Not only am I the only one that can stop this but my disorder is agreeing with them. i have to leave. i don't care about what's going on, i just want to go home and worry about myself. I haven't had an episode in weeks and this was surely not going to help keep it at bay.
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My trip to PAX turned a complete 180 from normal to crazy. After running from meeting two cosplayers i find myself later having drinks with them and their friends. And after finding out they were the real deal, it didn't seem to bother me. it only made situations worse. i was a decent entertainer back when i was younger, making videos with friends and sharing them. i gained a good amount of popularity but oneday i just woke up finding all my stuff related to the youtube website,gone, as well as the memories as to why.
it doesn't phase me one bit. i had to get ready for college and finding a job, so i didn't want to find a way to gain the memories back. Toby and them never pushed me to, they were just content as i was to move on with my life.
But after years i find that sometimes, if you leave traces of your past uncovered. Someone is bound to find it and resurface it. And not without the urge to do harm.