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Life?? For uh Life is loving,Caring,Smiling,searching for happimess..you see life in each flower that blooms You see life in each ray of the sun....
But For someone who existing on the same planet as you breathing at the same time you do it is not the same,
For someone life is begging,Begging to survive...some beg to fill their stomach some beg to fill their wounds and some beg to do both.
You complain that how that one relationship broke you,betrayed you...It haunts right??
It haunts me too when I wake up and I don't know what to name all these relation?I want them to fake their love towards me...even if they are hurting me I will bear all that so that I can assure myself that I belong,I exist,I survive!
I feel my Kanha is disgusted by me He tries but can't love me...because he looks at me with....satisfaction?
When I am crawling on ground with my hair extensions in my hand and different corners of my body keep bleeding...Only thing I can feel other than pain is his eyes...on me with smile?
You won't believe it but I feel it!!
And on the other end of this universe he kept one shadow caged...A shadow that often comes to dream and caress my hair look at me with some soft feeling in his eyes...It feels comfortable,warm but terrifying, but He can not come to meet me...he is caged and I...I can never forgive my god to bless me with this horrible curse...this life:)
THIS STORY CAN TRIGGER YOU AS IT IS COMPLETELY FROM A POV THAT'S BROKEN BEYOND REPAIR AND ISN'T SANE ENOUGH TO THINK ANYTHING OTHER THAN HER PAIN...