Demoralized Stories

Halfpace - It refers to that small landing at the top of a flight of stairs where you have to turn and take another flight of stairs whether going up or down. Serendipity - It refers to a happy and unexpected discovery. Behold, a collection of poems I've written over the years, from the age of twelve onward. Each poem is unrelated to the last. (Fair warning, the level of writing will change, because uhh, I grew up.)

'I feel like I'm reliving the moments everyday, except, it's as painful as the first time' .................................

18.03.16 Such high expectations and so little support. How can I be positive? Being positive all the time is to deny the truth. Such high aspirations but so little motivation. You can build me up yet no matter what I will crumble and take everyone around me down. "Mentally unstable" ; the label is misleading. I have to live up to my illness, don't I? ~*~ this story isn't all about romance, it's about how cruel society can be to a normal teenager of any gender.

" What is it that you want from me Andrew?! " I yell as I try to catch my breath " Please tell me because, your giving me all these f.cked up signals! And I just can't keep doing this! Tell me what do you want?! " I yell at the top of my lungs. " You Elizabeth! You're all I want, and all I ever wanted " he shouts as he walks closer to me. " Then why do you do this?! Act like this! And then you was with that b.tch, when you knew how I felt, and where we were going?! " He only walks closer to me, I feel his breath on my neck. " I'm scared " he states through heavy breaths, and he latch our fingers together as he start to bring them above my head." I'm afraid of falling in love with you, and when I had just gotten you, that you slip away from my fingers, and I'm here again, alone again" he states as he finally made eye contact. I release my hand from his, and cup his cheek " I'm scared too, and thats the thing about love, its fearful, and the thing about our fears is that its a choice, but when we have fear, we have to walk toward it and then through it together." I catching my breath. " Just tell me what you want " " You , Elizabeth. I want all of you. I want to taste," I gasp. " I want to know your mine and only mine. " He says as he lick lips and stares at me. My breath is hitched in my throat until, he starts to lean in. This is it !