houseofus
I feel like nothing is real around me. I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I can not remind myself before all this mess. For God sake, what happened to me?
I'm standing here, just in front of that guy, waiting for him to accept my apologizes. I don't even want to smoke anymore so I throw my cigarette on the floor and crush it. He's just looking at me. I want to beg him. I want to scream with all my strength. But I can't, damnit, I still have a pride and the huge part of my smashed brain that doesn't want to go over this cursed pride makes me shut my mouth whereas I just broke his whole heart. His sweet heart. His pure heart. This exemplary Aussie guy could have had any "barbie girl"looking girl but he felt for me. He was able to give me the entire world and to catch the moon for me. He tried everything to integrate himself into my word. He did the same dumb things as me, knowing that it's totally against his education, only to look after me. And I used him. Now the roles have changed. I love him. Yes, that's it, I fucking love him and I want him more than anything. He made me become what I am proud to be today. If I loose him, I'll be totally broken. I hated my parents for a while when they decided to send me in Oxford, when they took me away from Mia, when they tried to separate myself from Lea, Bruna and Emma. But as soon as I met my Mart, my ride or die, my SimpsAbsoluteBae, I knew something was going on. I wish I could tell him all that, but I'm speechless.
Martin, please stay with me, I will never do that ever again, I swear. Never.
And boom, I'm realizing that I am Zoe Pratt and I use to screw up every damn good thing in my life. I'm a human nightmare sent directly from Satan himself but I'm selfish and I want my Martin back.