Internalizedhomophobia Stories

╰┈➤ saw your face, heard your name, gotta get with you. girls like girls like boys do, nothing new. stranger things jane 'eleven' hopper x fem!oc "I thought you didn't want to," "Didn't want to what?" "..Be with me." *** please don't be a ghost reader! season 1 - 5 ONGOING cover by @kissfangs

I figured it'd be best for Hikaru to have a little backstory for Yoshiki's character. REMINDER: This whole fanfic is focused solely on Yoshiki and his feelings. Yoshiki finally reveals his true feelings for his childhood friend, Hikaru. His emotional, romantic, and sexual feelings for Hikaru were all revealed on one day. He always saw Hikaru as a comfortable person to be with. He always thought about Hikaru as a person suitable to be in a relationship with. He always had thoughts about Hikaru almost every day. PAST: Yoshiki and Hikaru were always, and will continue to be, inseparable the second they met. But one thing always stuck with Yoshiki's mind, he liked Hikaru. Not as a friend, but as a boyfriend. He grew up in an anti-queer household and was always scared to come out, knowing his parents wouldn't love him if he did. Hikaru was always there for Yoshiki, even at the worse time of his life. Even though Hikaru is seen as "straight" by Yoshiki, something always flustered him. Hikaru always teased Yoshiki about kissing him and talked about how he loved Yoshiki. Despite this, Yoshiki always thought that Hikaru would never accept him, nor would he ever see him as more than a friend. Hikaru, on the other hand, sees Yoshiki as a caring person, although he's mentally struggling. He never saw someone so strong, and has always thought about being with Yoshiki. But one thing is, he doesn't know how to face his feelings, nor does he know what his orientation is. He took almost every test online, and all of them pointed out that he's homosexual. He doesn't believe this. He thinks he should date women instead of men because of the people around him. ACKNOWLEDGEMENT: -English is my second language, so I might use some words incorrectly. -They're adults in this fanfic! I do not support predatory behavior. -This might include mischaracterization, but remember: this is my AU. -This is based on my own experience. I included some references here; good luck finding out.

Shinkami fic!! Au: Shinsou in 1-A, no other change! My first fanfic!! A lot of sleepy confessions and cuddling, this is mostly fluff!! (Ongoing fic!)

Ever since the Byers started living with the Wheelers Mike has felt different. He begins battling his own internal conflicts daily while trying to keep away from Will. As much as he wants to stay away he can't get enough of him. Mike is torn between forever wondering or letting his guard down and confessing how he really feels to Will.

In a world of humanoid insects and arachnids,we follow the love story between 2 Moths of the the classic Sun x Moon love story and also named Sun and Moon The 2 are college students both taking fashion, childhood friends that stayed close together and only grown closer But a border is set between them as Moon can't love Sun, you wanna know why? They're both boys!! Moon's conservative family could never allow,leaving tricky boundaries and rules in place for the 2 Could they fall in love? Or will they forever mourn for each other, hoping for a change or another life Trigger Warning!!!: -slurs -internalized homophobia -S/H -sexual topics -substance abuse/usage -Assault -stalking -harassment

" 𝙩𝙧𝙮 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚, 𝙫𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚. " ✧˖°. " 𝙩𝙧𝙮 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙖𝙡𝙡. " Viv and Casey have hated each other since they've laid eyes on each other, that's undeniable. Now, they're two of the most promising athletes in their tiny town, and unfortunately for them, classmates who seem to keep being forced together. But somewhere along the way, as they're forced together, they start to realize that maybe they don't hate each other as much as they thought they did. playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2M6y37HuaHh9S1Ri87oeco?si=df6adbc381904fff&pt=722a65c3e856bd6441705ad76ff101bc

*Things We Never Said* is a heartbreaking slow burn tragedy about two lifelong best friends, Noah and Eli, who are secretly in love with each other. While Eli longs to love openly and honestly, Noah is consumed by fear, shame, and the pressure to appear "normal" in their small town. As years of hidden feelings, denial, and missed chances build between them, their bond begins to fracture under the weight of everything left unsaid. It's a deeply emotional story about forbidden love, internalized homophobia, regret, and the pain of loving someone who isn't brave enough to choose you openly. (Inspired by the summer hikaru died)

In the fading days of Ayutthaya, Prince Phon divarankul and kuen malikit, the palace servant who tended his gardens, carried a love the kingdom could never accept. Their meetings were brief-hidden quiet words in between stone walls and night gardens, promises made where no one could see. Rank and blood turned the court against them, and fear made those around them choose duty over truth. Separated by law and blade, they died with only each other's name left unsaid. Fate gave them no rest. Now, in modern Bangkok, they cross paths again without memory of the past. Phon is an architect drawn to old temples and unfinished things. Kuen works in the city, carrying a quiet restlessness he can't explain. No thrones, no titles. just two strangers who feel the weight of something older than this life the moment they meet. Will they defy fate again, or let history repeat itself?

When Roderich leaves Vienna to practice music at the college level in Switzerland, it was unbeknownst to him that his roommate, the Swiss man majoring in business, would catch his liking. However, in a time where same-sex relationships are cruelly despised by the majority of society, Roderich finds that Basch, his said interest, certainly wouldn't reciprocate such emotions. Right? That was until he was proven wrong. - Assume that any characters left without a name are mine, all of the other characters are from Hetalia(anime/manga). I only own the plot. I write very slowly, so frequent updates are very unlikely.

Megumi Fushiguro's life makes a 360° turn when he realizes he might feel something that he's not ready to admit out loud... or for himself either. Is it... or not? The word sounded dangerous, something he prohibited himself to enjoy a long time ago. And it gets even worse when its... him. Yuuji Itadori's mind is going crazy too. He is kind of aware of what he feels, even though he can't give it a name, but, why? Is him that hard to love? Tons of questions pop up to his head, and starts questioning what he thought he knew, and what was so obvious for him once seems confusing now. Nothing guarantees them it's safe. They know they're not going to come out unscathed. Misunderstandings, lies, judging. All of those bomb the two young men at once. But they are a couple of involuntary masochists after all, but... what are they going to do about it? My first fanfic, yay. I hope it doesn't turn out shitty (the cover's art isn't mine, credits to the creator)

6REEZE, a popular six member Idol group... Unknown by fans and members alike, the possibility of love brews beneath the surface. Will their budding romance survive Idol fan culture, the media, and internalized homophobia? Only the wind knows.

❝𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞'𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭 𝐦𝐞.. 𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠.❞ 𝐀 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐈 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐜𝐫𝐲.. 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 "𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲.. 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐨. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞'𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐮𝐬, 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧." 𝐈 𝐬𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐳𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝, 𝐰𝐢𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐞𝐤. 𝐌𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐡𝐢𝐦. . . . Z'airee was a caretaker at a old people's home and he took care of many patients. The only thing was that it happened to be one of the few nursing in homes in NYC. So many patients wounded up from the hood where many of the patients were from different gangs. Z'airee wasn't supposed to have favorites but he always had this particular one.. Mr. Sinaloa. Heaven was a drug dealer who visited his grandpa, Tyreek Sinaloa everyday. His grandpa was everything that his parents wasn't to him. The trenches of New York was where he came from. All his mom cared about was drugs and his dad walked out on him. He grew up running the streets because his mom was too high one everything to care, with men coming in and out they house. He never had that support system so he was wit older kids for as long as he could remember. So as soon as his grandpa got custody he was good but he always knew he wanted to move out as soon as possible..Or so he thought. EXT

They called it devotion before they called it sin. At Saint Aurelius Academy, faith is treated as salvation, and obedience is mistaken for purity. Teetee has spent his entire life trying to become the perfect believer: the perfect son, the perfect student, the perfect boy untouched by forbidden desire. Every prayer upon his lips is a plea for God to rid him of the feelings he cannot kill. Then Por arrives like a storm against stained glass. Cold-eyed, sharp-tongued, and openly dismissive of religion, Por believes God abandoned people like them long ago. To him, faith is not comfort but cruelty dressed in holy words. Yet beneath his anger lies a loneliness so profound it threatens to consume him whole. They were never meant to understand each other. But somewhere between whispered prayers, trembling hands, candlelight, and secrets buried beneath chapel walls, hatred begins to resemble longing. And love-terrifying, devastating love-forces them to confront the parts of themselves they were taught to destroy. One boy believes God is everything. The other believes He is nothing. And between heaven and ruin, they find each other.

Bullworth Academy is supposed to straighten kids out. Instead, it gives Jimmy Hopkins bruised ribs, cafeteria duty, a stolen slingshot, and two deeply questionable friendships. After arriving at Bullworth with a fake fresh start and a whole lot to hide, Jimmy quickly earns a reputation as that freshman-the one who fought Russel, mouthed off to teachers, and keeps throwing himself into everyone else's problems like he's got something to prove. Unfortunately for him, Gary Smith finds this fascinating. Now Jimmy's stuck navigating violent cliques, increasingly suspicious staff, late-night chaos, and whatever the hell is going on between him and the school's resident manipulative psychopath-all while trying desperately to keep anyone from finding out the truth about him. Bullworth is cruel. The students are worse. And somehow, Jimmy's starting to feel at home there. A slow-burn Smopkins (Jimmy Hopkins/Gary Smith) fanfiction featuring trans Jimmy Hopkins, chaotic friendships, emotional damage, dark humor, and way too many Honey Buns.

Darlene, a woman who's been going to church since she was a kid, suddenly gains feelings for her best friend, Jane. Who she's known since middle school

What If hikaru didn't die, would've yohsiki and hikaru been together, or will they go through some ups and downs before getting what they want? Songs inspired by: The subway-chappell Roan Back to me- The marias I told you things x signs of time Free now- Gracie Abrams

(ART NOR CHARACTERS ARE MINE.) Travis Phelps, a catholic homophobe finds himself with feelings for another guy, Sal Fisher. His internalized homophobia leads him to believe that he can pray the gay away. (TW) Possible mentions of: Domestic Abuse Self harm Canibalism Religious Trauma Homophobia

Eteri Tutberidze, a Russian professor who recently joined a university in America as one of the Creative Arts professor and her sudden uniting with the university shocked the staffs and most of the students in the institution. Her quiet manner and her impassive expression has left them always intimidated and terrified. This makes Eteri different from the rest of the people working and studying at the college. Despite all of this, Eteri continues to do what she is now used to, keep to herself, do her job and leave. Gelli Cruz, a Filipino who migrated in America decades ago and also is a professor in the same university Eteri is working at. A jolly woman, always smiling, friendly and is always joyous to be anywhere. Looking into the positive light, she has always taken an interesting in Eteri. But the problem is, the older woman loves avoiding people. But that can be whatever for Gelli as the time goes on.

Atsushi has come to realize that when it comes to his own heart, he's completely unprepared. Somewhere between quiet conversations and the shared missions.. something begins to change. What starts as admiration slowly turns into something softer. Something thats far more terrifying to admit. As he struggles to understand these unfamiliar feelings, one realization becomes impossible to ignore: He might be falling in love with Tanizaki Junichiro. His friend and coworker.

The year is 1742 when Nicolas De Bourbon's father, the king of France, invites the noble family the Beauxmonts over for Noël (Christmas) and the New Years, he meets Elliot Beauxmont, a boy he quickly decides he despises.. Or does he? Tw's: Homophobia, period typical attitudes, sexism, swearing, mentions of non-physical child abuse