jasonmccant
"For years I've been trying to stop the beating in my chest, that loud pounding that consistently reminds me that life is completely pointless. For years the men in white have been refusing to let me follow through. And for years the morons all around me, the neighbors, the schoolkids, the shrinks, my parents, have all been crowding me with the same stupid words: "You're spoiled. You have money, parents that love each other, education, J.J., a puppy. Stop exaggerating." They're morons, all of em. Parents who love each other don't give life a purpose and dogs don't make it worth it. Money damn sure doesn't make people listen to you. I tell ya I've been trying to die since I was 6 years old cause of shit like that. But the truth? Suicide attempts never work. They just drain the little bit of trust you have around ropes and knives. My parents keep taking me to shrinks, making me talk about my feelings. I don't get it. Saying things out loud isn't a cure, it's amplification of what's louder in my head."