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"I stand my ground, and he stands his. Kind of.
"I'm not weird," he states. I can't help it, I smirk.
"You're fucking weird," I counter. Before I can react, he closes the distance between us. Both of his hands go to my face, leaving his waist the only place for my hands to go, and he kisses me.
It takes me half a second before I'm kissing him back. I pour my confusion, my anxiety, my fucking thrill, all into him.
His mouth is warm, he probably still has a fever.
He pulls back first. I look down at him, his eyes are on mine.
"Fuck," I whisper. He smiles, pulling away.
"You're blushing," he says, turning to sit back at the table. I'm too stunned to counter because it's hitting me. I kissed Cyrus. I kissed a man, and I kinda liked it? No, no. I did not like it.
I loved it."
Cyrus Essinger and Beau Mercer have been given wild hands in life.
Beau has spent his whole life protecting others, Cyrus has spent his whole life hiding who he wants to be.
When they end up in the same state, in the same college, in the same room, they're nothing alike. Beau is guarded and stubborn, Cyrus is loud and reckless.
And one night changes everything.
As Cyrus struggles in the aftermath of a party gone wrong, Beau finds himself on the edge of something he never knew he wanted, questioning everything he thought he knew about safety, about himself.
Because protecting someone is easy, but admitting you love them?
That's anything but.
"Insane" explores trauma, masculinity, queer identity, and what it means to find yourself, and the rewards of learning to be uncomfortable for the people you love.
*This story won't really be a slowburn, and won't contain a lot of smut.