lopezchronicles
"Give sorrow words, the grief that does not speak / Whispers the o'er fraught heart and bids it break."
Shakespeare
I'm a Gemini man and most of the world thinks that we are shallow, self-serving men. But what if I wanted to change that behavior in me - what if I don't want to be that man anymore, what if I want to be a kind, loving, devoted husband and father.
This diary will chronicle my thoughts and feelings as I try to reconcile separating from my wife of the past ten years. Not only because, I lost her, but because I also lost my two sons - all of whom I love dearly and whom I tried so desperately to love by changing and adapting the best that I could.
In my mind, my wife is perfect (she's a Virgo) they are perfect no matter what you say or do, enough said. My boys are perfect too - five and eight. In the sense, that they are caring, loving and beautiful boys with outgoing and gregarious personalities just like mine. So if I had the perfect wife and the perfect family, why not the perfect life? Why did my marriage fall apart and why am I left holding the bag and everyone's toys and pictures and clothes?
Dear reader, be forewarned that this story will not pull any punches. Understand that I intend to tell this story to the best of my ability, the good and the entire horrid splendor that has been the past 10 years. And why not, this story is as much mine as it is yours. And would not serve any purpose otherwise if I were not to dispel all the demons and misery that comes along with telling it. A cathartic experience, if you will. I need this as much as you do.