Nowheretoturn Stories

A short piece of writing which portrays the dark thoughts I sometimes experience as someone who has BDP - Borderline Personality Disorder. Although I feel somewhat exposed sharing this I am proud to do so as "Night Thoughts" captures a moment along my journey.

Bella has had enough and writes letters to everyone in her life good and bad. This is based of the characters in one comment changes all.

Just how I see the world when I can't be happy. I hope there are those who can relate and realize that they aren't alone.

In a city with no stars It's pretty bright out All the lights on high Deceiving day and night Getting trapped in the heavens It's pretty bright out In a city with no stars Is it sad that I long for his hand at night So strong, firm, knowing Is it sad that I wanted him to be with me but can't bare to look him in the eyes Is it sad that he calls me beautiful but I don't believe it. Am I not suppose to move slow? Am I not suppose to have limits? His arm around my shoulders, yeah I've never felt this sense of belonging It's been only 41 minutes But it feels like eternity I guess that's the price I pay for trying to control my dreams