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Buck was invisible all his life. To his parents, he only existed when he stood on the top step of the podium after another maths competition. They never asked how he was doing. They never wondered if he needed help, a moment's rest, a simple presence. All that mattered was results. Only successes.
He begged them to make a difference. He tried. He shouted in silence. But nothing was getting through. Over time, he stopped trying. Because how long can you fight for the attention of someone who looks through you like glass? Buckley no longer had the strength. He wanted to believe that he was worth more than a trophy or a diploma pinned to the fridge. He wanted to be loved - not for what he achieves, but for who he is. Therefore, running away seemed the only sensible option.
Los Angeles was to be a new beginning. A city of dreams, full of sunshine, happy people with their lives, celebrities passing by on the street. But reality soon turned out to be brutal. No one was waiting for someone like him here. Nevertheless, it was there that his life began to change - although not in the way he expected. Eddie Diaz was annoying, overconfident and always present where Buck least wanted him to be.
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- Why do you always have to be like this, Buck?! - shouted Eddie, walking right behind me. His voice reverberated off the walls of the narrow alley.
- Like this?! - i growled. - Maybe I'm like this because no one ever listened? My own parents only saw me when I won some fucking competition? I screamed inside for years! I disappeared, Eddie. I disappeared and nobody cared. My mother, my father... nobody even asked where I am. Nobody cares about me! And you have the nerve to ask why I'm like this? - i lowered my voice, but my words were sharper than before.
- I care about you. - he said quietly. - You are important to me, Evan. - the name that no one used anymore sounded like an echo of an old version of myself.
- It's too late. It didn't matter now.