Rawandunfiltered Stories

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"Jesus, take the wheel... 'cause I ain't doin' '25 without you." This ain't no fairytale. It's real life - raw, unfiltered, and documented day by day from the frontlines of surviving mental illness, heartbreak, poverty, and system failure. Jen is a ghetto goddess, a BPD warrior, a mama without her babies, and a woman trying to stay alive without electricity, love, or peace of mind. From sleeping with five dogs to stay warm, to battling suicidal thoughts in the middle of an Amarillo blizzard, her story is chaotic, heartbreaking, hilarious, and powerful as hell. She's in love with a man who only loves her when it's convenient. Her daughter's struggling with the same demons she fought growing up. And every day, she wakes up wondering if today will finally be different - or just another tragedy. This isn't just a diary. It's survival on paper. It's for the misunderstood. The mentally ill. The brokenhearted. The ones still holding on by a blunt and a prayer. You might judge her. But you'll never forget her.

It's an introspective reflection on feeling lost between past, present, and an uncertain future. grappling with self-doubt, fleeting obsessions, emotional numbness, and the paradox of wanting to try but fearing failure. These are my raw feelings and emotions.

This is not a self-help book. It's a confession. A reckoning. A mirror you can't look away from. "Rotten Petals" is the raw, bleeding journal of a soul stuck between self-destruction and survival. Through poetry, fragmented memories, and vulnerable storytelling, this book unpacks the quiet war of self-hatred - how it festers, whispers, manipulates... and how it sometimes wears your face. It's for the ones who scream inside their skin. For the people who flinch when they see their own reflection. For the beautiful, broken hearts who've ever felt like a mistake. This isn't a story of recovery. It's a story of being seen, even in the dark. And maybe - just maybe - that's the first step back to yourself.