Reflectivewriting Stories

A Cathedral of Longing Book II: The Theology of Grief Some griefs are never buried. They become part of the way we speak, remember, and love. The Theology of Grief is a collection of letters written in the aftermath of longing. Filled with unsent confessions, lingering devotion, and the silence left behind by unfinished love, these pages explore the sacredness of mourning someone who still exists in memory but no longer in reach. Each letter reads like a prayer for the lost, the almost-loved, and the parts of ourselves that disappeared with them.

The Boy Born in 1964 is a deeply personal, reflective journey through the life of a man shaped by struggle, survival, and silence. Born into a newly independent Kenya still finding its footing, he grows up in a world where softness is not a luxury men are allowed to keep. From a boy raised under hardship to a young man trying to carve out identity, love, and stability, his life becomes a constant negotiation between who he is and who he was told to be. He becomes a husband, a father, a provider - a man admired for his charm and feared for his temper. But beneath the surface of success and authority, something begins to fracture. Addiction creeps in quietly, reshaping everything he once built: his family, his legacy, and his sense of self. Told through memory, reflection, and fragmented truth, this is not just a story of a father - it is a story of inheritance, generational pain, and the complicated form love takes when it is never fully spoken. At its core, The Boy Born in 1964 is a love letter disguised as loss - an attempt to understand a man long gone, by returning to the boy he once was.

Between Quiet Moments There are feelings we never explain out loud. Moments where anxiety quietly sits beside us. Moments where silence feels safer than speaking. Moments where we try to exist without being misunderstood. This collection is made from those moments. Not every poem here is searching for answers. Some are simply trying to breathe through ordinary days, awkward conversations, crowded places, quiet thoughts, and emotions we struggle to name.

There was a time when I was writing... without knowing I was leaving. This collection brings together blog entries written years ago - raw, expressive, and honest in ways I did not fully understand at the time. These are moments of observation, culture, curiosity, and quiet questioning. I have not rewritten them. I have simply returned to them. Because sometimes, you don't realise you were documenting change... until life has already moved you forward. This is Part I. The version of me that was still learning.

"A raw dive into grief, emptiness, and haunting resonance. Read slowly. Feel it in your bones. This is for the lost, the silent, the unbroken."

This book is a journey through the highs, the almosts, the chaos, and ultimately, the clarity of human connection. It is inspired by moments of longing, heartbreak, and self-discovery - those times when someone held a special place in your heart, only to vanish, reappear, and leave you questioning what you felt. "Things That Felt Like Love" is not a story of romance as it is often imagined. It is a story of intensity mistaken for affection, neurochemical highs mistaken for love, and desire confused with connection. It is about learning to recognize patterns, reclaim your boundaries, and understand the difference between fantasy and reality. Within these pages, you will find diary-style reflections, imagined conversations, internal dialogues, and personal essays - all designed to immerse you in the emotional landscape of longing, almost, chaos, and release. This is a story that many have lived, even if they've never said it aloud. It is a story of learning to choose yourself in the face of turbulence and understanding that real love is not only felt - it is sustainable, consistent, and present.

"Echoes in Reticence" delves into the inner dilemma of holding back emotions and unspoken words. It vividly captures the profound ache of wanting to express feelings but fretting they might burden others. As thoughts and words remain trapped in the deep recesses of the mind, they become echoes-yearning to be freed but confined in silence. A soulful exploration of the burden of unexpressed truths.

In a world that rarely slows down long enough to listen, truth does not disappear-it grows quiet. The Quiet Flame is an ongoing collection of reflections inspired by the ancient path of Zoroastrianism-where every thought, every word, and every action carries weight. What began as a series of daily meditations continues to grow, drawing from lived experience as well as the enduring voice of the Gathas-ancient words that speak of truth, choice, and the responsibility carried by every human soul. These are not loud declarations or easy answers. They are small, steady reminders: A choice made in silence. A word spoken with care. A moment where light is kept alive instead of surrendered. This is not a book of instruction or belief, but a collection of reflections shaped by ancient ideas and lived experience. These pages offer no system to follow-only a fire to sit beside. This is not a finished work. It is a living one-meant to be returned to, added to, and carried forward. The flame does not end. It is kept.

This piece is a nostalgic reflection in the form of prose poetry, is on various moments and experiences that have shaped the narrator's life. From the rhythmic clacking of steam trains and the sight of farm boys in the Karoo, to the joy of new births and the warmth of a lover's gaze, each memory is vividly recalled. The narrative captures the essence of simple pleasures, profound connections, and the beauty of life's fleeting moments. It emphasises the importance of being present and attentive to the small, yet significant, experiences that enrich our lives.

A tender meditation on the fleeting nature of real love, Maybe Once, Maybe Forever explores the ache of having touched something sacred, only to watch it slip through the grasp of longing. This poem holds space for the quiet kind of love that doesn't demand, doesn't shout, but simply is, woven into stillness, memory, and spirit. With language both intimate and expansive, it asks what it means to believe in a fairytale that was never imagined, only lived. This is a story of holding on, letting go, and learning that some truths never leave; they simply wait to be held differently.

"In a world filled with noise, sometimes all we need is a moment of clarity-a single line to remind us of our strength, purpose, and resilience. This book is a collection of timeless quotes and profound reflections, carefully crafted to inspire, motivate, and guide you through life's highs and lows. Each quote is paired with a thoughtful elaboration, drawing wisdom from personal experiences and universal truths. Whether you're seeking hope, courage, or simply a fresh perspective, these words will become your companion on the journey to self-discovery and growth. Step into a world of powerful insights, where every page brings you closer to the life you're destined to live."

Lance is feeling down and missing home. He is missing his life back on Earth before Voltron. This is his reflective time and there is more to Lance than just flirting with Alien chicks, joking around and just being Lance.

What happens when a simple morning wake-up reveals an unsettling feeling inside? Simmering Fury explores that moment when a rush of unease creeps in without explanation-neither a nightmare nor anger, but something more mysterious. This poem delves into the complexity of inner emotions, capturing the quiet chaos that stirs beneath the surface when we least expect it.

A flame doesn't die in an instant... it fades, slowly, silently. And in its dimming light, we discover truths we never wanted to face."

Your wallflower through times and seasons. Gleamed golden with an inside of crimson.

Late at night in a quiet parking lot, a red van appeared, its windows marked with mysterious numbers: Philips 4:13, Romans 6:23. Parked unusually close, it felt like a sign-an echo of the unseen, a reminder that life can speak in unexpected ways. Was it coincidence, a message, or just a stranger passing through? The moment lingered, vivid and puzzling, leaving questions and quiet reflection in its wake.

Every thought holds the power to stir a silent revolution within. In "Thought-Provoking Tuesday: Thoughts That Made You Pause," author Swaha invites you into a weekly journey of introspection, offering a curated collection of reflections that urge you to slow down, reflect deeply, and reconnect with your inner self. Each page holds a mirror to the unnoticed thoughts that linger quietly in the corners of your mind-those fleeting questions, half-formed ideas, and lingering pauses that deserve a voice. Whether it's a quiet doubt, a surge of emotion, or a moment of unexpected clarity, this book captures the essence of those inner dialogues we often overlook. Perfect for journaling, group discussions, or soulful solo reading every Tuesday, this book is your companion in rediscovering the wisdom hidden in your own thoughts. It doesn't just speak to you-it listens with you. Pause. Reflect. Transform.

An inner monologue of my darkest moments and self discovery. Despite trying to ignore my never ending inner monologue I find myself once again writing down my thoughts carefully choosing each word with some twisted and confusing .... that this may be the book that I actually finish but also knowing that I've done this four times already, from make believe worlds I tried to escape into, to the digital book of shadows tracking my gained knowledge of which craft and spirituality, and yet this is different. I sit here knowing that if anyone ever does ever read this they are about to bear witness to the unpicking of my past and my mind, they will soon know me better than I know myself in this moment, yet there is no shame or apprehension but simply acceptance of my current position and a vague and blurry hope. So here it is, with all it's stupid and painful details, and as I go through the time line of my life so far maybe I'll just understand myself or maybe it will no longer matter and I'll just be happy.

Meet Ramblings - the old soul with a pipe, a story, and a chair older than time itself. He's the keeper of words, the fool with wisdom tucked behind every puff of smoke. His timeless presence - worn soft like memory, made for those who think deeply and speak sparingly.

When absence becomes a face we see every day, and existence turns into a question without an answer- Adam steps into the maze of his own mind, only to face what he fears the most: himself. Face of Absence is a haunting journey beyond the borders of man and shadow, where silence speaks, and every echo hides a truth untold.