awistfulpoet
At sixteen I stole my druggie mother's car and escaped to SoCal. She was so high that I convinced her I was the Virgin Mary trying to run and have Jesus, and that I needed her shitbox car out of all the other cars in the world. She broke down in tears and told me to take the keys. She even gave me gas money.
The day after my seventeenth I spent the night in jail. I had been drinking that night with a group of tourists that we're passing through our small beach town, and ended up crashing in the sheriff's garden. He must seen me and drug my sad ass to the single concrete cell in the county police department, because that's where I woke up.
The summer I turned eighteen I decided to become a groupie for a wannabe rock band. The lead singer was ugly, and the drummer was gay, but at least the guitarist was good with his hands. I followed them around for a solid thirty-six days before realizing life had more in store for me than bad beer and cheap marijuana.
The following year, the summer of nineteen, I tried cocaine. One night, while I was "getting gnarly" alone in the park, I got the nerve to call my mother on the corner pay phone. In the state I had been in, I decided I wanted to chat. She asked how I was and I told her fine. We ended up having a pleasant conversation, and I ended the call after I had already fluffed my nose three times. It was the first time I had talked to her in three years, and I haven't talked to her since.
I lost my virginity at a beach party when I was twenty. Sure, I had been touched before, but I always made sure it stopped before things got too intense. But that night, drunk on the beach, I decided it wasn't really worth it. I had been standing on the edge for so long that the fall didn't seem all far as it used to. So, I jumped.
On my twenty-first birthday, I died.
And that's where the real story starts.