Self-conscious Stories

A suite in progress. Some movements are written in certainty and others are written in the middle of the storm. This is not a story with a plot, nor a memoir looking back with crystal clarity. It is a collection of movements composed in intense yet complex feelings at the moment, each preserving a season exactly as it was lived. A prelude of identity, a scherzo of pressure, a fugue of unraveling, a lament of unanswered prayers, and whatever comes next, hence modulations... Written without the privilege of hindsight, these pages explore ambition, faith, grief, perfectionism, music, family, financial hardship, and the quiet fear of becoming someone you no longer recognise. Each movement remains a snapshot, a timestamp of a mind trying to make sense of itself while life continues to modulate around it. Perhaps there will one day be a final movement. Until then, the suite remains unfinished. P.S Look out for the stylistic contrasts between the different movements, some are more poetic and prose-like, whereas some are lyrical or perhaps descriptive.

While your trying to re-memorize your breathing style , you try to forget the demon era with your hopefully new friends.

I have found true happiness. I've always been a generally happy person, but there was always an underlying fear of not being good enough. Self-doubt was a passenger in my car my entire life. I'm proud to say I have finally kicked out that unwanted passenger, and now joy is my passenger for life. Sound cheesy? I don't care. I'm too happy to care. Don't YOU want to be too happy to care as well? You can get there. We all have the capacity for immense joy and well-being. We just have to overcome a lot of the mental roadblocks we've acquired over the years. I'll share some of the things I've learned that have changed my life. They can change yours too. Commit to being willing to change, and you, too, will unlock your inner joy and discover that happiness is yours.

You are a shy, self conscious girl trying to make your way through freshman year in college. When two "FBI agents" show up out-of-the-blue, you're stuck with choices you never thought you'd have to make! Will your anxiety get the best of you? Or will you let some strange men change your life forever.

She and her do not like to hang out together too often but since she is born attached to it she is trying to improve her relationship, with this significant other.

a story for those struggling with body positivity and accepting what god gave them.

A poem about reflecting on the inner workings of the self-conscious mind. This came during a time when I really started focusing on who I really am, WHAT I am, why I belong, etc. - all the questions that I was occasionally told were pointless by people whom I looked to for these important answers. Following little support from those around me on my impossible quest for knowledge of the unknown (the self) and the "true" nature of things, I became obsessed with introspection about my mind itself. This led then led to the creation of this abstract description of consciousness.

Poems about those times where my own mind is against me.

It began with a picture of her in a bikini. *** Shattered is the story of a girl who tried to hide her insecurities by pretending to be someone she's not. Trigger Warning: This story deals with topics such as Self-doubt/hatred and how it might affect young women. I thought I might just put this here just in case.

This is me talking about my experiences being extremely thin.

A rant about my insecurities I guess

This is more like poetry and I've always been kinda good at it and so why not post some poems here!

they say overthinking would kill your happiness, but it is the only way i get to know myself. -thoughts, poems and feelings.

To be honest, the way industries are playing with the beauty standards is something we should really look at today! If you are not conscious enough, then you might just be another pawn to their game. Ask yourself, are you willing to be one? Recently I have posted a video speaking on how to be more attractive but I made a promise to step out of the mainstream. I wanted this to be something that's realistic, relatable at least to some of us and in simple words "NO BS!"

Quotes that will help during your journey to become your best self.

I've created this poem to represent people who are self conscious and ashamed of themselves.♡🌹So if you notice someone really doesn't want to be looked at here is a little explanation to why they may feel this way. It's not necessarily that they are ashamed of themselves. They are just afraid of being viewed the way that they view themselves inside of their minds. Or how they were once viewed by other people in their lives at one point. ♡: So please be understanding!

You have core memories. You may think you forgot but your soul does not.

A letter from a depressed woman to her lost self shedding light on life,death and The search of meaning within chaos and absurdity.

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