Self-hate Stories

To be loved is to be understood. Yet how long will it take for one to cherish the light that shines from within in an era of distraction and 'aversio'?

After victim destroys everything on Alans computer it sends Alan into a stressed spiral. That computer held everything. All his government documents . All his photo memories of his family were on there along with the original files for the colour gang. Everything was wiped all because of his own sins that came home to greet him. Now he has to recover it all, but deep down he knows that it won't be possible. Victim burned his files, not deleted the files and in a futile attempt to get back everything he connects a VR head set to his PC opens adobe animate his create a new stick figure, and in the entity name he writes. N00g@i_G0D. Objective: be my host. oh there is no way this will go wrong. :)

"jungkookie, you okay?" "yes, hyung i'm fine." highest rank ~ #8 in depressing #20 in yoonkook ♡

sequel to "i'm fine" ~ "but guessing by the way you're acting you'd prefer a break right?" "fine, i'll break the fuck up with you then. don't come to me until you're ready to fucking believe me, okay!?" he was ready to suffer alone so his boyfriend would be happy,

Neil was caught between a hard place and a rock. His lungs heaved as he desperately tried to suck in air, but to no avail. He couldn't breath. Tears ran down his face as he smothered his strangled sobs against his pillow. He didn't know how long he could keep up this act. All he wanted was Todd. Todd couldn't sleep. He hadn't been able to for the past few nights. All he could think about was Neil. His lips as they closed over a cigarette. His brown eyes sparkling as he practiced his lines as Puck. His wet hair and how it clung to his neck after a shower. Todd squeezed his eyes tight as he tried to will away the wicked images. He shouldn't be staring at his best friend like that. It was unnatural. It meant he was a fairy. Yet Todd couldn't help but stare. A story of two boys coming together, overcoming some of life's obstacles, and falling in love with each other; until one is tragically taken away.

Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? Raise your hands... Quite a few of you. Do you think about suicide often? Raise your hands... Still a lot of people. Do you think about suicide every day, planned it, wish for it? Not as many, but some. Have you spent at least 20 years thinking of suicide, feeling pain at almost every waking moment, hating life, hating yourself, being self-destructive and have the perfect way to end it all? Still a couple of hands in the air. Well, this story is for you.

In a world of soulmates that swap bodies for a single night once a year after they turn 16, Lily Tome, a shy, self destructive girl decides to go into hiding rather than searching out her other half. Her soulmate however seems to have some other ideas in mind. *** Lily Tome is a 16 year old beauty who thinks she isn't anything but unworthy. Living in a world where her love is bound to another, she finds her favorite fashion model is the one who she is tied to by destiny. Once she discovers this however, she doesn't think she deserves him and goes into hiding. Ashton August, her soulmate, has some other ideas in mind as he discovers her school and looks before beginning to attempt to track her down. Cover by Heather_Dianne Thank you so much!!! A/N: So, the prologue is pretty short, but everything else, I swear, is a lot longer. This book was the first I ever wrote and completed, second I ever attempted to write and I'm very happy with how it turned out but just like everything in life, it isn't perfect. So any feedback you would like to leave for me will always be greatly appreciated. With much love, I hope you enjoy the story. Started: 10/15/17 Finished: 7/29/18

This is just a story about how I feel. Like the title says it is going to be my diary. There will be self harm and suicidal thoughts. There will also be mdlg because I am a little who has a mommy. Feel free to comment and if you ever need or want to talk to me I will most likely respond pretty fast.

Heiress struggles to understand how she can glide into others peoples bodies, unnoticed, and mess with their daily lives. That is, until several of the people the body hops into begin to notice her. *** Heiress shares space in the vessel for only a day, living vicariously through them. She allowed her newfound ability to become an obsession, to completely take over her life. But lately, it seems that the rules have changed: somehow the bodies she encompasses begin to realize that she is there. Copyright 2020 @veronicasoli

"And remember that no matter how fat, ugly, useless and worthless you may be... I am the only one that loves you and cares about you.. I am your best friend after all..." [⚠️ READ DISCLAIMER ⚠️] 1k reads: 25/1/2019 2k reads: 15/4/2019 4k reads: 4/6/2019 6k reads: 7/7/2019 8k reads: 26/7/2019 15k reads: 1/2/2020 (wtf?) 20k reads: 13/4/2020 (rlly wtf??)

Some sad things I'm feeling.mediocre Poems etc( healing)

COMPLETED. He's not strong, or brave, or even smart. He believes himself ugly, useless and his parents enforce it every day. He has nothing and no one. Well, Michael has nothing but words. Words and a certain Luke Hemmings.

Meet Betty Miller, a swifty at heart, a girl who still sleeps with her stuffed animals, cares too much about others and not enough about herself. Betty is living life constantly trying to please everyone around her. She keeps up in school with perfect grades, always makes plans with her friends so they won't feel neglected, yet actively searching for an escape. Then comes in James Cavanaugh. Friendly next door neighbour type guy. He acts as a breath of fresh air in Betty's life when he moves to Riverside High School. Will he act as a good distraction or will Stephen become something more permanent in Betty's life. Secrets will be uncovered, hearts will be broken and mended again. Read for more on Betty and James' story!

Hi my name is Alex.....not that you care. In fact I doubt anyone is even reading this. Who would want to? Anyway this is the story of my life. It's not very long but it gets the point across I suppose. I would tell you the entire story hear and right now if I could, but I can't......he would punish me if I told anyone. So I guess if you want to know my story, and I doubt you do, you'll have to read for your self. A/N Hey! I just wanted to say that I don't own any media I put in this book. Also all characters and ideas are mine so please don't copy or steal anything. Also the cover may be temporary as well as the tittle. Other than that enjoy!! All rights reserved.

In der Geschichte "3 hearts, but one love" geht es um ein Mädchen Namens Amalia, die zusammen mit ihrer Großen Schwester Tamara In einem kleinen Dorf in der Schweiz lebt. Jetzt ist Amalia 16 doch Ihre Eltern starben als Amalia 12 war, an einem Autounfall und seitdem kümmert die 22 Jährige Tamara sich bestens um ihre Schwester. Jedoch kämpft Amalia durch den Tod ihrer Eltern, mit starken Depressionen, und zudem lernt sie noch den Freund von Tamara kennen. Das diese eine Person das Leben 3er Menschen so auf den Kopf stellt, hätte keiner von ihnen gedacht..

A book of quotes, poems,rants etc. about my feelings

~ A single tear ran down her fair skin, the trail it left behind gleaming on her porcelain completion. Her delicate red lips quivering as she looked at her self in the mirror, looking at the stranger she saw there. As quietly as she could she made her way to her bed, the floor cold on her bare feet. She gently laid her head down and hoped for sleep but knew it wasn't an option as the memories became prominent once more. ~ TW: This will contain mentions of sexual assault and self hate! Do not read if this makes you uncomfortable, I will put a note at the top of the chapter if it contains any of those topics. This is a girlxgirl book, so don't like, don't read. This is my first long non-fanfic book so please leave your constructive criticism in the comment s or dm me. I hope you enjoy!!!

𝐴 𝑠𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝘩𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝐽𝑖𝑚𝑖𝑛'𝑠 𝑐𝘩𝑒𝑒𝑘. 𝐻𝑒 𝘩𝑎𝑑 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑡𝘩𝑟𝑜𝑜𝑚 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝘩𝑎𝑑 𝑠𝑙𝑢𝑚𝑝𝑒𝑑 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑟. 𝐻𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑙𝑡 𝑒𝑥𝘩𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑑. ... 𝑇𝑟𝑖𝑔𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔! 𝐴𝑙𝑠𝑜 𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑛 𝐴𝑂𝟥 & 𝐴𝐹𝐹

The world is harsh. It gets too harsh for someone who's been strong way too long. An AU of Kim Namjoon's letters to his bandmates.