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[ questions of the heart series #6 ] I thought telling you how I felt would set me free, but instead it cost me the closest thing I had to you. Now I'm left with a love that has nowhere to go... and a heart that doesn't know how to move forward. It feels like learning how to live around the space you used to fill.

[ questions of the heart series #4 ] I replay everything like a broken film reel, searching for the exact moment I lost you. Was it when I loved you too loudly, or when I finally admitted what I had been hiding for so long? I keep thinking maybe I ruined something beautiful just by trying to make it real... and now all I have left are questions that never answer me back.

Jiang Tian x Sheng Wang Zhao Xi x Lin Beiting Pang Xie (Crab) x Song Sirui *** A few months after Jiang Tian and Sheng Wang got back together, they bought a house near Old Ding's place. However, just days after they moved in, they began hearing rumors that the house was haunted. To get to the bottom of things, Sheng Wang called his old classmate Crab to investigate, while Jiang Tian reached out to Zhao Xi, who arrived with Lin Beiting. Song Sirui also heard the rumors and decided to join in. Together, they set out to uncover the mystery behind the ghost haunting the house, but soon find themselves drawn into a thrilling and unexpected twist instead.

[ questions of the heart series #3 ] I keep waiting for the moment your name won't hurt anymore, but it never comes. Every color in my world still reminds me of you, just like every quiet moment still echoes your absence. It feels like I'm stuck loving you in a place where time refuses to move forward, and I'm starting to fear it might stay that way... forever.

[ questions of the heart series #7 ] Something inside me is missing, and I can't name it anymore. I laugh, I breathe, and I try to exist... but nothing feels whole. It's like you left with a part of me I didn't even realize I was giving away. And now I keep walking through life feeling unfinished, like I was never meant to exist without you in it.

[ questions of the heart series #1 ] I don't recognize myself anymore. It feels like I was built around you... your presence, your voice, and your existence anchoring every part of who I thought I was. Now that you're gone, I move through life like a hollow version of someone I used to be. I keep searching for myself in places you once touched, but all I ever find is absence wearing my name.

[ questions of the heart series #5 ] You are gone, but I still feel you everywhere... in the quiet, in the music, and in spaces I thought would heal by now. I fear you not because you left, but because you never truly stopped existing inside me. Even your absence has a voice, and it still knows exactly how to find me when I'm at my weakest.

[ questions of the heart series #2 ] I carry too much love inside me, with nowhere to put it anymore. It spills into everything... into silence, into nights that feel too long, even into memories I can't escape. I keep asking myself what I'm supposed to do with all of this love when the person it was meant for is no longer here to receive it.

[ questions of the heart series #8 ] When everything becomes too heavy and the silence starts to swallow me whole, I find myself searching for someone... anyone to call out to. But all the names I once trusted feel too far away now. And so I'm left speaking into the vastness, hoping the universe still remembers how to answer someone like me when I can't hold myself together anymore.

Sheng Wang's diary after Jiang Tian left.