Thoughts From Far Away
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My actual journal entries from when I went to a mental health facility. Just some background info, I went to an outpatient facility before this. I came to this specific place on December 16, 2014 and left on December 24, 2014, I had another journal at this place but I sadly lost it. Here is what I have left!
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