"I'm Sorry"

They say that your drunk thoughts are what your sober consciousness wants.
Does that mean I want you?

I can't get you out of my mind. All I see is your eyes, one blue and one grey, your soft lips . . . But I know I can't have you. Nor would you ever want someone like me. Someone like me, so undeserving, unworthy and far too ugly to even be in your presence. Besides, you already have someone else. Someone who makes you smile, who loves you more than I ever could. She's everything I'm not. She's everything you'll ever want. Looking back on that night, it was a mistake, and it was wrong. It was the night I lost you forever. I lost my only chance of ever being in love, after rejecting you to protect myself. To protect myself from the inevitable heartbreak, from the tears that I knew were bound to come, and from you. You, my true mate, Xavier Black.

Follow Lexi Anderson on her heartbroken journey, will she get together with her mate? Or will she crushed by the loss of him?