Kellin had messed up badly and he knew that. He lost one of his suicide notes. Yes, this meaning he had written more than one letter explaining his cause to suicide. Kellin had been depressed for sometime now. At one point Kellin actually felt like he was making some progress and getting better, but suddenly it got so much worst than before. He was considering suicide as a way out but for some reason he just couldn't bring himself to do that either. Kellin kept a notebook that was filled with hundreds of rewritten suicide notes. He had the habit of ripping out the one he didn't really like. This time his note wasn't in his back pocket, which could only have one explanation, it must be somewhere at school. Two days later Kellin still hadn't found the letter so he decided to just give up. At the end of the day he was approached by one of the most popular guys, Victor Fuentes.