Selfish Souls (Phan)
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Book 1 | Phanfiction
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"Yes, I do have a power, one commonly referred to as psychokinesis or telekinesis if we're doing this comic book style.
No, I don't go around at night rescuing people from burning buildings and saving kittens trees.
I keep to myself, lonely, bullied, and seemingly abandoned but most importantly not dragging anyone down with me.
Keeping others safe in my own way.
This is my contribution to the universe, not contributing anything at all."
*I add a lot of songs to the chapters and they help set the mood of it, so it's recommended you have headphones and listen to the songs as you read.
TW: mild depression, swearing, drinking, mention of suicide, abandonment, and existential crises
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