Through My Eyes
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Poems written when I was being mentally abused by my narcissistic ex-boyfriend, and my "best friend" at the time chose to believe him over me every single time - accompanied by songs I find fit. These poems helped me get through a tough time in my life and I hope they help you too.
My healing process is very evident by the end as you will see, and I hope this helps heal anyone that's going through narcissistic abuse, feeling lost and alone, experiencing depression and anxiety, or anything else I touch on.
Cheers!
"Oh honey, well you know what,
that's okay.
I'm learning to accept that,
For you it was never me.
I was always just your 'most convenient prey.'"
Authors Note: This healed the f*ck out of me. 10/10 would recommend.
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