LOL Suck It Up, Loser
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Last published Wed, Mar 1, 2017
Yes I hate my life. No I wouldn't mind dying. No I am not depressed my doc says i'm just "low on vitamin D". My thoughts? Im a depressed anxious fuck up that literally doesn't deserve a spot on this fucked up world we live in.
Just your typical autobiography thats worded like i'm ranting to my friends or something. It's more like I wrote this to rant but I guess my life would make an interesting book. There's a shit ton of errors and swears so be warned. Yeah so, here you have it, my life in word form.
If you wanna contact me or some shit my twitter and instagram are @dianaxtavares
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