When will I be free?
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MatureOngoing8m
Last published Wed, Sep 11, 2019
Are you a ride or die chick? How far are you willing to go? What are you willing to do? These and many more were questions I wish someone had asked me before I began this journey. I wish someone had taken me aside and explained things to me. But if that had happened I wouldn't be here to tell you this story, and perhaps keep you from some of the same heartbreak I have suffered. I want to tell you this was all bad, but that would be a lie. It's not all bad, there have been some amazing moments, but all in all, I don't think I would wish this on my worst enemy. And for me that says a lot. I can tell you now, if given the option to do this over again, I don't think I would, I don't think there was enough good in this to overcome the bad. Who knows, I learned a lot, more than I would have ever thought possible, and maybe that's what my journey was meant to be about. But let's start at the very beginning shall we?
Based on actual events, this story takes us on the journey of one woman's experience with the prison system and her relationships with men inside. Names have been changed to protect the innocent.
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"What else that you want explain ? Another lie ? Another hurting truth ?." She questioned me after she calmed down . I look at her , a little hurt with her question . I let her go but I hold her hands in mine . " You're everything to me Allison. I can't lose you this time . That woman is not anyone to me , she was just a suggestion from my family . It was never meant to be since my mother don't like her . " She looked at me with teary eyes . It broke my heart more to see her crying . " Please don't cry . It hurts to see you cry . Please, stop crying ." I wiped off the years from her eyes. <----------My Bad Girl----------> Allison Hillman , is the leader of the most feared gang , DarkBleed . Such a big position for a young 24 years old girl . Killing and fighting is like her hobby . Like every other girl , she too , had a bad breakup . She vowed to herself not to love boys , but it's difficult when her grandfather hired a damn gorgeous and caring guy as her bodyguard . Ryan Ailey , a 28 year old bachelor , CEO of Aileys Security Proffesion . He's supposed to sign the business deal with Mr.Hillman but in one condition , he has to be Allison's bodyguard for 7 months . He doesn't get why Mr.Hillman need him to be her bodyguard since he can hire a better one . Everything seems to change after him knowing Allison . Want to know the ending ? Read the book 😂 I'm not gonna tell you ! {June 20 , 2018 - February 12 , 2020}
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