Eight years ago, I fell in love with my friend. I didn't realize it till much later, and then I was too scared to say anything, for fear of ruining our friendship. Time passed, we grew apart, but still kept in touch. On a trip to Paris however, everything changed. I confessed my present love, He confessed his past love, and we realized we were too late. We had lost our chance. The moments were gone and all I am left with now is the 'what if'-which, to me is the most heart-breaking thing of all.
We're caught in a Loveship. Neither love, nor friendship-but the something in between. In order to get over my heartbreak, I wrote down every memory I have of Him in my journal. It made me smile and cry. He is a wonderful man and I want to celebrate His moments in my life, celebrate Him so much that eventually I can let Him go with a smile-and genuinely mean it.
As a result, I thought I'd share my story here. With You. I chose art by illustrator Pascal Campion (www.pascalcampion.com/shop) to complement each post because I just love his work. To me, his illustrations personify Love in all it's forms and I think, in this case at least, he captures my "Loveship" perfectly.
Wish me luck..
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"I'll wait as long as you need." he whispered and I felt myself blush. Carson would wait for me. He wanted me.
I cleared my throat a little which made Carson laugh at my awkwardness.
"Okay. I'll uh, wait for you too." I said and Carson's face broke out into a large smile.
"I'm already there."
Through the ups and downs life brings, Carson and Cassie have always been there for each other. They have been the best of friends since she was nine and he ten, where they shared their secrets together at their "top secret" place in the park. She's always had a special place for Carson in her heart but when her life goes into a downward spiral it is then she realizes how much she needs him, how much she loves him. He has loved Cassie for as long as he can remember. He's closed off when it comes to other people but when it comes to her it's like another person comes out. He likes the way she makes him feel. They depend on each other. But will being each others lifelines be too much?