brainchild | z.m. & n.h. au - ☹ dead girl ☹

brainchild | z.m. & n.h. au

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Parts 12
Time 44m

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I do not know what love is. I am small and the universe is enormous and I am rather ignorant. But you make me feel alive, and I guess that will have to be enough.All Rights Reserved

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The End (Ziall Horlik) by xXZiallsChildXx

When surviving is all you've done for months, you forget how to actually live. When running is all you've done for months, you forget how to walk. When the dead is all you're used to seeing for months, you forget what a human looks like. When hating is all you've done for months, you forget how to love. Zayn Malik hates Niall Horan. Liam, Austin, Harry, and Louis weren't so bad but damn he hated Niall. All Zayn wanted to do was find his boyfriend. That's all he was trying to do. Find him and leave. But Niall looked too much like his boyfriend. Niall acted too much like his boyfriend. Niall was too much for Zayn to handle. He made Zayn wanna live a little. Love a little. But that was the problem. It was the end of the world. There was no time to live. And there sure as hell wasn't time to love.

Double Trouble (Ziall) by ClizzySterekQuintis

Is being Gay wrong? This is the question Niall Horan has to keep asking himself. He knows he can't change who he is. But everyone around him thinks being Gay is disgusting. Why do so many people hate Gay people? Niall doesn't understand anything. He has fallen in love with Bradfords bad boy, Zayn Malik. Niall is pretty sure that Zayn doesn't feel the same way, but that's after they meet. Before they meet Niall is in a bad place and has no one to talk to, but that stops when a mysterious hottie saves him from darkness.

I can only tell you a thought of my own hopes. It is to know that love exists for real in the human world. All kinds of it. The bigger and the smaller, the most absurd one and the most sublime one. Desire and denying. Trust and distrust. All kinds of love. But I never thought it would happen to me until one day my hole world flipped upside down. They say the best things in life comes unexpected and I will forever be thankful for that.

In the years since high school, Niall Horan has made a name for himself. But sometimes, no matter how big you become, there are still those people who have the power to tear you right back down. ... Ziall One-shot!

Over Again - Ziall (Sequel to "Just One Time") ✔️ by LamPayning

Niall is free. After four days of being locked inside a house from his kidnapers, he is free. But what happens when Niall realizes that he doesn't want to be free... that he'd rather stay locked in a house as long as Zayn was with him. He is hurt because he gave Zayn everything while he didn't even say goodbye. Was Zayn only planning to use Niall and then laugh behind his back? Niall didn't know what to believe. What will happen when he realizes that he likes the guy who had a crush on him when he was locked? What will happen when he realizes that his feelings are deeper than that? Will he try to find Zayn? But even if he found Zayn, what would he say? What would he do? Will he keep looking for Zayn, or will he just give up and try his luck with someone else? Co-written with @emilyjayne2013

Save Me From The Monsters - A Ziall Fic by Anonymous43

Niall has always been special. They called him different, strange, diseased. But he had visited many doctors, and none of them diagnosed him with anything. Niall was just scared, all the time. Paranoid, some people may call it. He swore there were monsters out to get him, and constantly lived his life in fear, never having the guts to tell anyone what was really happening to him. Until he meets Zayn. Zayn Malik has many frightening features himself. But will he be able to get Niall to loosen up, and for once in his life actually face the monsters who have made his life hell?

Let me love you (boyxboy) (Ziall) by WxnderStories

A Ziall story. Niall and Zayn. With some Larry scenes. Includes gay love and self harm. Niall fights everyday with a smile, being in one direction would be the best thing ever. Or so he thought. Once he starts feeling something for someone he never thought he could like more than a friend, he becomes really depressed. How does he deal with these feelings? Does he tell this person how he feels? Or does he keep it all a secret? Read and find out. Please don't read if self harm is easily triggered for you or you are homophobic.

who am I? (Ziall Horlik) AU by BriannaLynnC98

Zayn Malik is a lost soul. He has been told all his life he is nothing and has forgotten all about happiness. So when he loves a boy that he knows will never return the feelings, he feels more lost. He wants this boy to love him too, but hes only been told he is unlovable. He has only been told who he is and what he us made of for the past 6 years. He just wants to be the person he was before the abuse and pain. But that leaves him wondering... Who am I?

❝Ｈａｐｈｅｐｈｏｂｉａ. Tʜᴇ ғᴇᴀʀ ᴏғ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜᴇᴅ. ❞ Niall Horan has Haphephobia, always has, probably always will. Whenever someone reaches out to touch him he screams and hides inside his baggy sweaters and people just learned to stop touching Niall in anyway. Niall is an outcast, which is fine with him because he just gets ignored at school. That is until the new kid Zayn Malik shows up and decides to make Niall's life a living hell. Copyright © 2013 Ocaen

People are scared of me. Scared of my appearance Scared of my touch Scared of my presence Because I am a freak I didn't ask for this 'gift'. I didn't want to freeze everything I touch. But this is who I am. Hated... So I ran away. ~ Niall Horan, the ice boy. Only looking in his eyes would tell you that he is something special. The extraterrestrial icy blue colour, blond hair and pale skin are dead give-aways. And special he is. He has a heart of ice. Everything he touches freezes instantly. But people hate him for it, think he's a mistake of nature. Even his own parents. So, he ran away. With no money and just a backpack filled with clothes, he travels through the country, thinking he's the only one with a gift like this. Oh boy, was he wrong...

The End (Ziall Horlik)

When surviving is all you've done for months, you forget how to actually live. When running is all you've done for months, you forget how to walk. When the dead is all you're used to seeing for months, you forget what a human looks like. When hating is all you've done for months, you forget how to love. Zayn Malik hates Niall Horan. Liam, Austin, Harry, and Louis weren't so bad but damn he hated Niall. All Zayn wanted to do was find his boyfriend. That's all he was trying to do. Find him and leave. But Niall looked too much like his boyfriend. Niall acted too much like his boyfriend. Niall was too much for Zayn to handle. He made Zayn wanna live a little. Love a little. But that was the problem. It was the end of the world. There was no time to live. And there sure as hell wasn't time to love.

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