brainchild | z.m. & n.h. au - ☹ dead girl ☹

brainchild | z.m. & n.h. au

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Time 44m

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I do not know what love is. I am small and the universe is enormous and I am rather ignorant. But you make me feel alive, and I guess that will have to be enough.All Rights Reserved

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Everyone has a story, whether it be a good or bad one it is there. Everyone starts somewhere, even if it is in a three story mansion or an abusive house. Everyone hides something, whether it is feelings towards someone or every single thing that has happened to you. Everyone has secrets, they are the same, hidden, dark, scared, unknown to the world. Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words leave mental and emotional scars. Battle wounds that I hold forever, in my mind, and on my body. Nightmares, awoken every night by the same faces that haunt all my dreams. Broken, scared, abused, raped, I am a broken soul waiting to be saved, though I know my savior will never come. I am Niall Horan, the soul that could not be saved. This story has abuse scenes, rape scenes, self harm, alcohol abuse, and graphic scenes. Readers are advised now. Completed as of 20/1/16. [boyxboy] Mainly - [Ziall Horlik] - Zayn Malik & Niall Horan Side of - [Larry Stylinson] - Louis Tomlinson & Harry Styles Side of - [Nosh Demshaw] - Josh Devine & Nick Grimshaw

Love Can be Frightening *A Ziall AU* by p0w3rfu1_0n3

*A Ziall AU* Zayn has always loved his sister. She meant the world to him. Doniya Malik has been Zayn's goddess. Zayn had always looked up to his sister, he had always wanted to be like her, even if that meant wearing her espadrilles and stilettos, dancing to Ariana Grande in her pink bedroom or smothering sparkly gold lipstick all over his mouth. Zayn loved his sister more than anyone in the world. But there was something he didn't know that went on with his sister. The conflicts his sister had with others. When Doniya had to move away 'for college', Zayn was devastated. Even though he spoke to her almost every night, he missed her dearly. He continued to do what he loved best, something that Doniya had taught him, how to skate. He kept on skating and hoping for his sister to return to him. Until then, he felt alone, unloved and confused. Until when another guy came in and caught him skating. Then, Zayn realised, he could love someone other than his sister. A different kind of love. And that he could be loved by someone else, a different kind of love. But What happens when love has physical consequences? Love can be Frightening.

"Love is the least of your worries, you need to breathe."

In the years since high school, Niall Horan has made a name for himself. But sometimes, no matter how big you become, there are still those people who have the power to tear you right back down. ... Ziall One-shot!

Against all odds (A Ziall fanfic) by ThelittlestOreo

Zayn Malik has a huge crush on the most perfect boy alive. Niall Horan. Too bad Niall is not only straight but he thinks Zayn is too, and they're both part of one direction how would the fans take it? how would the other boys take it? more importantly, if he knew, how would Niall take it? Little does Zayn know, Niall feels the same way about him. But once they both realize their feelings will they be able to live Happily ever after? Or will handling their fans, management, and their relationship be too much for the boys to handle?

She saved my life (a Harry Styles fanfic) by Breexnna

"I didn't think a heart was capable of feeling this much love for a person. I guess you really can love someone so much... It hurts."

Double Trouble (Ziall) by ClizzySterekQuintis

Is being Gay wrong? This is the question Niall Horan has to keep asking himself. He knows he can't change who he is. But everyone around him thinks being Gay is disgusting. Why do so many people hate Gay people? Niall doesn't understand anything. He has fallen in love with Bradfords bad boy, Zayn Malik. Niall is pretty sure that Zayn doesn't feel the same way, but that's after they meet. Before they meet Niall is in a bad place and has no one to talk to, but that stops when a mysterious hottie saves him from darkness.

The End (Ziall Horlik) by xXZiallsChildXx

When surviving is all you've done for months, you forget how to actually live. When running is all you've done for months, you forget how to walk. When the dead is all you're used to seeing for months, you forget what a human looks like. When hating is all you've done for months, you forget how to love. Zayn Malik hates Niall Horan. Liam, Austin, Harry, and Louis weren't so bad but damn he hated Niall. All Zayn wanted to do was find his boyfriend. That's all he was trying to do. Find him and leave. But Niall looked too much like his boyfriend. Niall acted too much like his boyfriend. Niall was too much for Zayn to handle. He made Zayn wanna live a little. Love a little. But that was the problem. It was the end of the world. There was no time to live. And there sure as hell wasn't time to love.

Let me love you (boyxboy) (Ziall) by WxnderStories

A Ziall story. Niall and Zayn. With some Larry scenes. Includes gay love and self harm. Niall fights everyday with a smile, being in one direction would be the best thing ever. Or so he thought. Once he starts feeling something for someone he never thought he could like more than a friend, he becomes really depressed. How does he deal with these feelings? Does he tell this person how he feels? Or does he keep it all a secret? Read and find out. Please don't read if self harm is easily triggered for you or you are homophobic.

Over Again - Ziall (Sequel to "Just One Time") ✔️ by LamPayning

Niall is free. After four days of being locked inside a house from his kidnapers, he is free. But what happens when Niall realizes that he doesn't want to be free... that he'd rather stay locked in a house as long as Zayn was with him. He is hurt because he gave Zayn everything while he didn't even say goodbye. Was Zayn only planning to use Niall and then laugh behind his back? Niall didn't know what to believe. What will happen when he realizes that he likes the guy who had a crush on him when he was locked? What will happen when he realizes that his feelings are deeper than that? Will he try to find Zayn? But even if he found Zayn, what would he say? What would he do? Will he keep looking for Zayn, or will he just give up and try his luck with someone else? Co-written with @emilyjayne2013

Be My Savior {Z.H. AU}

Everyone has a story, whether it be a good or bad one it is there. Everyone starts somewhere, even if it is in a three story mansion or an abusive house. Everyone hides something, whether it is feelings towards someone or every single thing that has happened to you. Everyone has secrets, they are the same, hidden, dark, scared, unknown to the world. Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words leave mental and emotional scars. Battle wounds that I hold forever, in my mind, and on my body. Nightmares, awoken every night by the same faces that haunt all my dreams. Broken, scared, abused, raped, I am a broken soul waiting to be saved, though I know my savior will never come. I am Niall Horan, the soul that could not be saved. This story has abuse scenes, rape scenes, self harm, alcohol abuse, and graphic scenes. Readers are advised now. Completed as of 20/1/16. [boyxboy] Mainly - [Ziall Horlik] - Zayn Malik & Niall Horan Side of - [Larry Stylinson] - Louis Tomlinson & Harry Styles Side of - [Nosh Demshaw] - Josh Devine & Nick Grimshaw

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