Soft Tears On The Hard Notebook; JMB

My soft,warm tears hit down falling onto the hard,cold notebook. As I cried turning the pages reminding myself of all the memories I had realized my heart was broke without him. Life wasn't worth living without him. And he won't ever think about me again. I won't ever get to hold him again but, he will be holding someone and not for a second think about me. I will lie and say I don't miss him. He won't ever hear my name again. It hurts to know he is sharing what we had with someone else. That he's holding someone else. That he wakes up to a girl much more beautiful than me in the mornings. That his smile will no longer be for me. It will be for her.It will all be for her.Not me.All I can do is write my stupid feelings in a notebook. I wish I could get over him as easy as he did me. I throw the notebook every time I pick it up. But writing is my passion but, to have his smile back its worth writing.I've wrote letters but, he never wrote me back. Or so I thought. He moved back home and goes to my school.His girlfriend told me to stop being a prick and move on. When I look at Joey in the halls he see's me and quickly looks away. When we broke up I remembered what happened. Why couldn't myself forgive him? Now he's gone forever. He gave up on me. He gave up on are love. And we won't ever be the same again. I just wish the pain would go away. Every time I looked in his eyes my heart would melt. But now its different. Its all different.