She's a nerd who doesn't act like a nerd. She's an athlete who doesn't act like an athlete. She's a friendly person who can't make friends. She's a socially adept person who is never social. She's shy, but she's passionate. She's scared, but she's brave. She is the PERFECT definition of an oxymoron. Everything about her is confusing. But there is one thing she knows..... She knows EXACTLY who she is. She is herself.
Now, her only problem is that no one else knows that.
She's a student, a normal girl. She goes to school, she plays sports, she does homework, she goes home, she eats, she sleeps. And yet, she's not who she says she is. She's not who she pretends to be. Being normal ISN'T her.
Coming from a world of discourse and secrets, a young girl strives to find her way in a world that can never know who she truly is. How do you keep from losing yourself when all you ever are is someone else?
Elliot's partner was his whole world, but after Allan's death, his ghost haunts Elliot's dreams. Everyone tells Elliot to move on, but he isn't sure he can.
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It's been a year since the love of Elliot's life, Allan, passed away. Everyone thinks he should have recovered after that much time, but Allan still haunts Elliot every night. He struggles to maintain relationships with his family, and despite a coworkers interest he can't summon up the courage to date. Elliot is living for the past, because to live for the present means he'll have to live with a hole in his heart. But the question Elliot has to face chases him through his monotonous days: is mourning Allan with everything he has truly living?
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