my journal
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WARNING this story talks about mental illness and addictions. If you are younger then 13, are easily triggered or just don't like the idea of depression and self harm i highly advise you find another story to read.
Hi my name is Kat and this is my story. I need a good way to talk about my feelings without having to tell someone face to face. I'm in 8th grade and dealing with depression and an eating disorder. I've been getting bullied for two years, and which lead to one of my few addictions cutting and drinking. I'm finding new ways to cope with what i'm going through.
I will try to add a entry everyday plus a link to a song that helped me get through the day. i hope you guys enjoy
( disclaimer all the names are fake just to protect my identity. )
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I like inflicting pain. Not on others but on myself. Some people would call me depressed but I'm not. If anything the pain makes me happy. I started "self harming" at the mere age of nine. Or at least, that's what she called it. My therapist, I mean. She ended up giving me a life time supply of antidepressants and some shitty advice. I'm now eighteen, rotting in jail, and awaiting my death sentence. This is my story and if I'm quite honest, you don't want to hear it. +++ awards: ➵ Winner, Short Story Category, "Summer Book Awards" @Capybara100 ➵ Overall Winner, "Summer Book Awards" @Capybara100 status: ➵ started - 19/08/17 ➵ finished- 07/11/18 note: ➵ Please don't copy me. I don't appreciate it and will block you and report you. No writer likes to be copied and neither do readers. Readers want something which is unique and original.
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