My Best Friend Ed
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Ongoing7m
Last published Sun, Sep 24, 2017
I crawl out of bed, wrap myself in a sweater woven from words of hate and disgust, draw on my fake smile that screams, 'i'm fine', and tie the laces of my boots that I hope one day will strangle the last breath from my body.
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