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The List

CookiesandCream01

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Reads 255
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Parts 14
Time 1h 59m

CookiesandCream01

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abuse betrayal firstlove hope love

"His hands were all over me, his clammy grasps everywhere. The stench of his overpowering aftershave was almost unbearable. I tried to move away but the hands only seized me tighter. I couldn't breathe. This was wrong. So very wrong. I opened my mouth to scream..."
 Rachel cannot get away from her past. For the past four years, she has tried to forget and her pain and betrayal has never left her- her recurrent nightmares were proof of that. But keeping her terrible secret has taken its toll- is it possible that someone else is suffering as a result of her cowardice? Will she be able to stop it in time? Will she ever be able to love and trust? And most importantly, will she be able to save herself?
All she has is a list, an aching heart and desperation for freedom.All Rights Reserved

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The unreachable mountain by Growened

"You're unbearable!" He kicks her with utter contempt. "Please tell me where I'm wrong, causing you discomfort was not my intention," she said crying, causing him to hit her against the ground again. "Do you think you can live with good intentions? Didn't you have all the time you wanted to change and learn? You still dare to ask for more!" He yells at her with hatred, he blamed her for being the one will cause a woman to be beaten; He didn't want to be that kind of man. However, what he lived with her caused him to bring out what he hated the most about himself from within. -Forget it love- said a woman who was next to her- it's not worth it- this dog was supposed to be her friend, she was supposed to support her just like she did; however he managed so that he and she hated each other and thus be able to steal it. The woman on the floor does not know how much she was framed and harmed by her naivety, nor did she know that this was the beginning of her misfortunes. Because of that woman she did not stop suffering, wherever she went she suffered verbal or physical abuse and everything was orchestrated by this woman; she didn't know until she was about to faint. "Why?" She asked this unarmed woman without knowing why she hated him so much. She never did anything to hurt him. She just laughed viciously without answering him, she didn't have to waste her time with an insect; leaving La to die imprisoned in the house where she was kidnapped. "Answer me!" She got up from her bed screaming "Eh? This looks like my room; Did I reincarnate myself in the past?" She ran to the bathroom just to see that her assumption was correct. She thanked the heavens for this second chance by promising that she wouldn't be fooled a second time.

My Somewhat Forbidden Love by givemelove1626

"I'm not the dating type. I don't want you falling for me if I can't catch you." He said to me with sad glistening eyes. I ached for him. I needed him. I know he loves me but his past won't let him open this door. Only my heat of innocence can melt away his pain... "I'm not asking you to catch me.. I just want you to let me in.. Let me love you-" and with that I was pushed to the wall and a passionate kiss was upon my lips. How can something so sinful feel so heavenly...? Nathan and Madison met a year ago on an online game. Of course it wasn't taken seriously but as time passed by, they both felt a connection on a whole new level. Having yet to meet in real life, there's still lots of undiscovered secrets. With an age gap, distance, and fear of their family's disapproval, their love was surly put to the test. Will they get through it?

Taken Captive by reyatutt

I wrote this when I was 16 give me a break. TAKEN SERIES: BOOK ONE TW: kidnapping, manipulation, toxic/abusive relationship, violence, death, grief, self-harm, suicidal thoughts/attempts, sexual assault, non-consensual sexual content, alcoholism, stockholm syndrome, switching partners, etc. Do not read this story if you get triggered easily. If you decide to continue, that's your own choice. This story will portray a BDSM relationship, NOT counting the toxicity and genuine abuse that goes on throughout it. Do not comment anything unnecessarily judgmental, especially if you don't know what you're talking about. Thank you, enjoy. - - - - - "Don't ever do something like that again, or I will kill you, understood? "Yes, sir." - - - - - After being continuously hurt, left alone, heart broken and losing the one thing that kept her going, Nia Seymour turns to a new job that will show her how to let loose, live her life and make her happy again. The last thing she expected was to be Taken Captive by someone who would turn her life into chaos, make her addicted to the pain and hold her heart in his hands, breaking it and putting it back together over and over again until she's had enough. • • • The second he lays his eyes on her, Callum Rivera's world is turned upside down and he's made his mind up. She's his. He feeds off of the tears she cries, loves the pain all over her face when he hurts her over and over again, whether it's purposefully or not. As time passes and feelings evolve, soon enough the tears falling out of her eyes no longer give him pleasure, only pain and all he wants is for her to be happy, as long as she's with him. • • • The universe is sending challenge after challenge to these two individuals who want nothing but each other. Will they get past these secrets, lies, toxicity and pain? Or will one of them give up? - - - - -

Scars Beneath Silence by Kokoiicrunch

In those quiet, still moments, when the world slows down and distractions fade away, the past creeps in, heavy and suffocating. Amanda has spent years building her life around silence, using it as a shield to keep her memories buried where they can't hurt her. On the surface, she appears calm, collected-like she's finally moved on. But deep down, her heart is still marked by the scars of a childhood filled with fear, betrayal, and a loneliness that never left. As she stumbles through adulthood, those old wounds threaten to break through, unraveling the fragile peace she's worked so hard to create. No matter how much she tries to outrun her past or how silent she remains, the scars always seem to whisper back, louder than before. (Full English)

Passion's Pitfalls by Shay__x

"I know this is probably not making any sense," He stated, his voice full of emotion. "I'm afraid of letting someone in, of letting someone see who I actually am. I'm afraid of being hurt, of being rejected. I know it's not rational, but it's what I feel. I've been hurt to death, and I don't want to go through that again." He looked up at her, his eyes full of sadness and fear. She didn't know what to say. "I've tried so hard to stop myself from loving you," his voice, thick with emotions. "I've tried to keep you at arm's length, to protect myself from getting hurt. But I can't do it anymore. I just can't. I love you, and I don't know how to turn it off." He took a deep breath, and closed his eyes for a moment. When he opened them, he looked at her with a desperate, pleading look.

I Felt Used by LatinaNCali

"SO I WAS ONLY A BET TO YOU!" She yelled at me. "Look I'm sorry but at first it was, but then when we kiss it just change everything. I couldn't stop thinking about you after you left, then I was hurt and mad because you wouldn't give me your phone number," I was holding her hand looking at her apologetic. "You're such a dick and then you went and fuck one of those girls. I can't believe this I just knew you were mistake. I knew I shouldn't have fuck with you........you're too young and you act stupid. You know what I'm so done with you............UGH I feel so stupid," she walks away angrily.

DO YOU REMEMBER ME? (Completed) by skylight_blue

.( only for 17+ ....mature language will be there...so read on your own risk...) This is My story so do not copy it... (\_/) ( °¢° ) .How could it be? When I look at you Faraway memories come back to life It's always like that When I look at you I see the lost memories from you Protect yourself from disappearing When things get hard, remember me I really wanted you So I hope you'll stop for a moment and look at me I can't stop, I'm afraid I can't control myself, what do I do? Look at me, remember me It happens even when I try When I'm in front of you Memories I want to forget come back to life Protect yourself from disappearing When things get hard, remember me I really wanted you So I hope you'll stop for a moment and look at me I can't stop, I'm afraid I can't control myself, what do I do? Look at me, remember me Protect yourself from disappearing When things get hard, remember me I really wanted you So I hope you'll stop for a moment and look at me I can't stop, I'm afraid I can't control myself, what do I do? Look at me, remember me

Beloved Hate by ciaestix

Prologue I - I no Aksh it's--its not what you, I lo--- there was and is only you ." she sniffled when she said that. "Sure sweetheart I believe if I was and is there forever,Now give me what I want" I grabbed her arm and took her towards my car. "Please Aksh it's--it's hurting" she cried. "Oh yeah" I retorted back with pure sarcasm "Did it hurt when he filled you up with his- " It gave me pure disgust just thinking about it and I can't even tend to make it a sentence. I opened the door and threw her in the back seat and hovered over her. She settled on her elbows and cupped my cheeks with one hand "please Aksh trust me I don't want to hurt you please give me some time I'll come to you and tell you everything please now is not the time please Aksh" I chuckled addressing her words. She didn't wanted to hurt me , All these coming from a traitor, a snake who left me for a guy's dick and years later I caught her doing the same . If she's a snake then she's my customised snake. Am not letting her go at any cost. "You know what" I wiped her tears and placed her hair locks behind her ears "This time I won't let you go I'll fill you up with my baby again , yes you're correct right here only. And take you to my place so you won't dare to take pills after our deeds, then we'll get married in the next 3 months, then no motherfucker can let only touch you but can't even bat an eye on you." She tried to get away with my hold but I slammed my lips on her pinning her down .................

Sealed and Silenced (Watty Awards 2012) by Crazzypurplegirl

My name has been forgotten, tossed away like a piece of trash. I do not talk. I do not look anyone in the eyes. My hands shake from my past and I barley sleep at night. I always hear the grunts and the groans of the men that abuse me. I see the insanity in their eyes. They see the fear in mine. I had a chance to escape. I took it but it landed me back in the same position. It seems like I will never escape.

Run, Darling by troublefor2

WARNING : Written when I was young, my mind was everywhere, read at your own cost. She had to run. She ate her own child on command, there was nothing she could do about it. Loved him with all her heart yet there she was picking his pieces from the soup and putting him in her mouth. She had to be limp on command, laying down defenseless on the bed so he could take her the way he wanted without care if he had impregnate her. After all, what kind of daughter would she be if she disobeyed her father.

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The unreachable mountain

"You're unbearable!" He kicks her with utter contempt. "Please tell me where I'm wrong, causing you discomfort was not my intention," she said crying, causing him to hit her against the ground again. "Do you think you can live with good intentions? Didn't you have all the time you wanted to change and learn? You still dare to ask for more!" He yells at her with hatred, he blamed her for being the one will cause a woman to be beaten; He didn't want to be that kind of man. However, what he lived with her caused him to bring out what he hated the most about himself from within. -Forget it love- said a woman who was next to her- it's not worth it- this dog was supposed to be her friend, she was supposed to support her just like she did; however he managed so that he and she hated each other and thus be able to steal it. The woman on the floor does not know how much she was framed and harmed by her naivety, nor did she know that this was the beginning of her misfortunes. Because of that woman she did not stop suffering, wherever she went she suffered verbal or physical abuse and everything was orchestrated by this woman; she didn't know until she was about to faint. "Why?" She asked this unarmed woman without knowing why she hated him so much. She never did anything to hurt him. She just laughed viciously without answering him, she didn't have to waste her time with an insect; leaving La to die imprisoned in the house where she was kidnapped. "Answer me!" She got up from her bed screaming "Eh? This looks like my room; Did I reincarnate myself in the past?" She ran to the bathroom just to see that her assumption was correct. She thanked the heavens for this second chance by promising that she wouldn't be fooled a second time.