A series of directions and decisions we choose to take and follow blindly which sometimes take you to the highest heights of light and mostly to the lowest lows of dark, eventually will drain all the energy from you, kill your inner and take you far away to an unknown destination pulling you out from the rest of the world and you will feel alone, unsatisfied and yes then you wish hard to be yourself again, the one you used to be, the one that was satisfied, happy and optimist and wasn't forlorn. So just open the curtains little bit. This is note to self.