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Proglue
Have you ever suffered the agony of being the not-so-cute girl who lives next door to the campus heartthrob?
It's unfortunately to have a cute guy your age as a neighbor. He feels so near yet far. You start imagining what it would be like if you were going out with him. If only he would glance your way, just once, and see you i a different light.
In most case, he won't. The harsh truth is that you were the only one who kept on wishing, hoping, and praying for a miracle. In reality, this is what it's like to be the next door:
1) He knows your name - that's it. He doesn't want to know what it means or where it came from. Maybe he even regrets knowing it.
2) Your mom talks about him all the time. His mom talks about you all the time. Your moms are friends. You're not.
3) Sometimes, he watches you play with your dog. You start wondering if he will approach you, but you instantly push away the thought. Why? You catch him staring at you. You're already doing the same, which is why you hope. He puts an end to your fantasy and leaves.
4) While being in close proximity, you think you already know a lot of things about him, but you don't. For example, who was his first kiss? You can't actually see that from your bedroom window.
5) In summat (because this list is staring ro sound dreadful), he's not interested in the girl next door, even though she's everywhere.
How do I know? Because that girl is me. His name is Xander Sawyer. His my neighbor and his room is right across mine. I'm the girl who devoted half of her high school years to making sure Xander Sawyer noticed her existence. It's a time I look back on and feelfeel like I deserved a good slap in the face.
But Xander Sawyer is a guy you'd likely do that for. From head to toe, he's the definition of the word beautiful. His face can sway a girls feeling with just one heart-stopping look.
Or maybe that's just me.
The old me.