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The Suicide Notebook

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Time 7h 45m

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"Make sure you are something before you fade to nothing," is a statement that Lucky takes to heart. 
      At Bayridge High, a prestigious boarding school on the east coast of the U.S.A., they have a legend. A legend of tortured teens, and lost souls, a legend of tragedy.  Bayridge has the highest suicide rate of  the country, and one of the highest cumulative GPA's.  Every cautionary tale, every kid who died young in that school kept a record in the suicide notebook.  Detailing their thoughts, their feelings, their everyday lives until their lives were history. And Lucky knows he's next. He finds the notebook from subtle clues dropped by a mysterious upperclassman. He expects to find stories, beautiful and tragic in their nature. What he finds is so much more. 
        
        A note: This story is labeled as sci-fi. I swear most of the weird things and things that seem slightly off around lucky will be scientifically fictionally explained. It becomes very very sci fi when the huge gigantic plot twist occurs.  
        
      Update schedule: Everyday 
      
       Highest rank: 5 in science fiction 
        
        Nominated for The Emerald Awards, The Literary Awards,  Indigo Awards, The Global Awards, The Fiction Awards, and the Aspiring Authors Awards

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