Half a heart (on hold)

When he left me, I'm not gonna lie. It hurt. His blue eyes filling with tears as he told me that he needed to focus on his new budding career in one direction. 3 years I followed his band, I was a fan. One that was on a computer all day not having the money to go out to tons of concerts hoping he'd notice me again. Hard feelings gone. I still loved him, I just wasn't whole. He left me with only half a heart. (Involves self harm, bulimia, depression)