Can I breath?

This is my personal story...something that I've experienced myself that changed my life for worst. As a Muslim women I have all the freedom in the world and in the end my decisions matter to me but they come with huge consequences that makes me question my life. My Somalian (not Islamic) community is used to shun women for whatever mistake they do especially when it comes to marriage..I am not doing this challenge to win but for my voice to be heard so that I can actually breath because I am alive but not really living.