I do my best
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Last published Fri, Mar 24, 2017
"I'm just walking alone, smiling to myself, struggling to please everyone. Judgement is gnawing at my brain, my eyes won't stop leaking, my breaths are short and fast, my face is patchy and tired and my stomach is screaming at me, constantly."
This is me.
Telling the truth.
I'm sorry.
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