What do you want to be ,( ifath-abedin)

Let me just take you back to when I was 16 when.I was getting dying together wasting the only time I have on this planet and there was that question of what do you want to be when you grow up a question that would always make me stay up late and just just think , remember just watching the seconds tick by one after another after another.I don't know why I was that obsessive and I don't know why I was that scared but I remember the just thinking about how I could be gave me so much hope and you know that thing where when people give you ideas like you know maybe could be a teacher or doctor or a begger .Paper would just give me all these ideas and although they are all perfectly valid they just they weren't exactly what i wanted to do the annoying thing was I didn't know what I wanted to do exactly .I just knew that the suggestions people gave me they just didn't play with with with me remember this one night where I was I was so close .They just stopping .I had this thing that I loved but I felt like i had no direction to be honest that's getting me a lot it was almost like I was I was blind and I wonder my thoughts just trying to scrape up ambition inspiration and happiness I remember talking to my dad about this and I remember exactly what he said the only person that is stopping in the passing they can stop you from being what dream to be is you at the end of your life you can only answer to yourself and if you look back when we're done this well that the only person you can claim is you.I still look at the time I still watch the seconds just just take away but I don't get scared anymore and people ask me that question my smile because I finally think I have the answer.