Stay Awake (Jalex)

jack-The thing with school is that I really don't like it. I mean most people don't like school but I have never been the most popular anywhere I went. I never got directly bullied though, even though I know that people talk about me behind my back. I know how people don't exactly...want to hang out with me, I never exactly knew why. I can think of a few things but I don't want to be that sad kid who feels sorry for himself. So I just get on with it and try to forget about the fact I cant bring myself to hold a conversation with someone, or be confident, or go to school or-stop. So My name is Jack Barakat and I am 15 years old, starting a new school and I am slowly starting to hate myself. - - Alex- Im scared. I dont let people know how I am feeling and I try to hard. I feel like I cant do work so get bad grades, I have friends but I don't think any of them actully like me. They are just people to hang out with, not people I can realte to, not best friends. I wish I could trust people and I wish I didnt have to be so afraid of trusting people. My name is Alex Gaskarth and I am 15 years old, wanting somone exciting to come into my life.