The Drugs Won't Help Book. 1
DontTrustACryBaby
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DontTrustACryBaby
Complete, First published Mar 27, 2017
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The first time Sebastian tried to kill himself he was 15. Since then all he can think about is bringing his pain to an end, but at what cost. Will he succeed and bring a world of pain down on those who care? Or can they save him before it's too late?
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This story contains mentions and acts of self harm, suicide, sexual themes, rape, underage, and many other triggering and mature themes. Read at your own risk. Stay safe! :)
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