What are you afraid of?
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Last published Tue, May 2, 2017
The reckless swimming of thoughts in my head drive me insane. They would have killed me by now if I wasn't so hard to kill. Everything around me seems to be against me, including myself. I cry myself to sleep most nights, well the ones I'm not passed out due to some way I chose to torture myself. I don't know what's wrong with me, but how could I if I've never really known who I am anyway?
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