He's going to die in the end.

I wished I would never die so that my loved ones would never feel the pain I experienced when grandma died.
But dad died.
Then mom died.
My world I thought was perfect crumbled to the ground.
I've been eleven for thirty-six years.
I've been eleven for forty-two years.
I've been eleven for forty-nine years.
I've been eleven my entire life.

Kill me.