I must be insane; able to think this horrifying thing up in just one hour. I don't really even know what I should be writing... I guess I could write to you. I'm sorry I put this on you, and I'm sorry you've seemed to be the cause of my guilt. The only reason I'm doing this, is because I think my best friend deserves something like happiness. I don't think this will hurt me that much, but it'll probably hurt the people around me. That's kind of selfish I guess- taking the 'easy' way out. But I want to make it up to your mom. That's selfish too. Doing this to protect myself. That's not true though...if I really were, then wouldn't I want to stay and see for myself that I redeemed myself?