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"you'll never fucking be anything in this life or the next! you're a piece of shit and taken up space! I don't even know why I decided to talk your crazy, depressed, suicidal ass! I don't even know why I thought I could even love a disgusting being like you! dismiss yourself from my presence! you stupid, unlovable bitch!" He shouts at me. I swallow that burning lump in the back of my throat as I attempt to keep my steaming tears at the brim of my eyes where they lied. "I know..I know I'm unlovable..I know I'm stupid..I know I'm a piece of shit..I know I'll never be anything in this life..or the next..I know I'm just taken up space..I know I'm disgusting..but you already fucking knew this! whenever you told me I was beautiful I reminded you how disgusting I am! whenever you told me I was smart I told you I was stupid! whenever you told me you was happy that you had me in your life, I told you I was taken up space! and when you told me you loved me!" I screamed as my timid voice cracked. "when you fucking told me that you loved me..I told you that I was unlovable. Do you remember that? Do you remember when I told you I didn't deserve love. happiness..or peace? you remember that? I do. Do you remember when I told you no one would ever love me because I'm the most ugliest, craziest, depressed, idiotic human being. Do you remember when I told you everyone in my life always leave me.. Do you remember when you said you'll stay? because I do. Do you remember that."

A girl in this world looking for her purpose to live. you shouldn't feel drained and empty at the age of 16. you shouldn't feel trapped. you shouldn't want to die. you shouldn't cry for hours everyday and pull out your hair and have thoughts of harming yourself. so why does she? myanna has been through so much and gave up on everything she loved along the way, including her own identity. when she meets a mysterious boy who believes he can change this broken girl, he soon finds out it's not true opposites attractAll Rights Reserved

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Starlight by a_readsss

"Get the fuck away from me, Leo." I lean down a little, so we're barely eye level. "You followed me to New York. Are you really that desperate?" "If you believe that my life revolves around your immature self, then your life must be sad. I fucking hate you," she responds. I twirl one of her curls between my fingers as I lean closer to her ear. "So why don't you go back to leaving, yeah?" ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* :･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞. 𝐙𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐚 𝐌𝐨𝐨𝐫𝐞 wanted nothing more than to waltz through life and try to get through it one step at a time. 𝐋𝐞𝐨 𝐕𝐚𝐬𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐳 and his twisted past ensured that their worlds inevitably collided years later once again. Two people entangled by 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘴. Will they survive each other? Or were they always destined to be nothing more than a temporary eclipse.

The Pregnant Bride by Avreet_B

"Stay away from my daughters." He said, as the servant guided them away infront of my eyes. The ivory bangles in my arm clinked as I put the flick of my hair behind my ear. This would be what... the second argument for today? "You had a step father in your life, who you admire. Why can't I have that relation with your kids?" I spoke, crossing my arms over my chest, trying hard so that the tears in my eyes don't slip out. "Because I don't want them to be knocked up before they are married." He stated again. He shouldn't have gone there. Badtameez "Like your sister was?" I spoke again. My child maybe illegitimate but it wasn't unwanted. "The guy who knocked her up also married her. Which is not true in your case." He said, and walked out of the room as I sat there alone for the third night in the row. I wanted to call my dad, but I had ended all relations with them on my own free will. What would become of me now? Copyright- No parts of this book shall be copied without my permission. My books are only on Watppad and should not be found anywhere.

It Wasn't Love ✔️ by depressedn0nce

"Fuck." He whispers into my neck, sending a thrill of excitement through my body. His lips still smothered kisses over my neck and his hands roamed my body, starting at my chest, going down to my stomach. Caressing my soft skin, his thumb trailed circles on my groin before slightly slipping into the waistband of my jeans. My breath catches in my throat as I pull at the hoodie that covered his chiselled body. Understanding, Jacob pulls it off in one swift movement before attaching his lips back on my neck. Sucking and biting it before flicking his tongue over the sore spot. A quiet moan leaves my mouth and I clasp my hand over it, denying any noise to escape. "You drive me fucking crazy, Aria." ---------------------------- Aria Bailey finds it hard to fit in. Her parents are always busy and never have time for her. She lives alone at her family home and has top grades in all of her classes. But being a 17 year old friendless nerd comes with its disadvantages. The bullying gets worse every single day, driving her to self harm and suicidal thoughts. Aria learns more about popular boy, Jacob Rickson and starts developing feelings for the well known 18 year old. Jacob helps her come out of her shell and learn to be more comfortable and confident. Aria has to make a tough decision by choosing if she would rather be with Jacob and be bullied by her mind for eternity, or to leave and be left alone, exactly how she wants to be. -Strangers to lovers -Right person, wrong time

Whisper To Me by AWhisperAmongEchos

I don't know how it happened, I don't know where it began and I don't know when it ends. We met on an app, we were never meant to be such close friends, but we were, maybe even more. We grew close, yet we were strangers at the same time. You were my shoulder to cry on even though you were rarely there physically. I told you my secrets, but I was so caught up in the thought of finally having someone there for me that I never realized the fact that you never told me yours. When we first met we were inseparable. We weren't meant to be more than just acquaintances, but somehow, we grew closer and I got attached. I tried to stay away, I tried to keep my distance, but I was clouded by the fact that I wanted- needed a friend. The walls I spent so long building up, you knocked them down so easily, that it looked almost effortless. I fooled myself into thinking that you would always be there, that you were different from everyone else, that you wouldn't leave like them, that you wouldn't drop me like I was nothing. Foolish girl. We grew closer, I got attached and somewhere along the way, I fell in love. You never loved me the way you loved her, did you? Was I just a broken toy you wished to fix? Did you pity me, the lonely girl that barely survived the world? Why did you leave? I wake up one morning and you're gone. Gone from my life, from my mind, from my memory. Please tell me why. Why was this our falling out? Please tell me. What was it, the words you continue to whisper to me before I close my eyes?

Blue // Daniel Seavey by La--Petite--Mort

A reflection. Do you like yours, love yours or hate yours? There's many people in this world who dislike theirs, not because of the physicality that they see in a mirror, but because they know what's lurking behind the eyes that stare. So much can be seen in yourself from your own pair of eyes, things that others don't seem to see. Do you know why that is? That's because no one knows you better than you know yourself. A pair of eyes could seem so kind, warm and innocent to the world, but only yourself could know the true darkness behind them. There's one person in this world who knows exactly what I'm talking about. He knows the infuriating, angering feeling of the painful suffering he experiences when his own eyes meet his reflection's. Deadly, severe, menacing: is what he sees. Everyone who looks into them simply see a bright pair of ocean eyes. Blue. That's all they see. But only himself knows he's drowning in the tidal waves of their deep ocean. And no one cares enough to notice, to help, or to save. Until her. She used to think fire was more murderous than ice. Little did she know, that would all change at first glance. She saw the eyes, she noticed their blue, she stared for a second too long, and now she knows that there's no going back. He'll claim her. ~If I take a step away from him, he takes a step closer to me. If I run, he'll find his way back.~ ~I'm trying my goddamned hardest to not act on the ache I'm feeling to place my lips on hers, just to have a little taste, because I don't want to appear as some sex-driven teenage boy who just wants to claim her body. Because I don't. I want to claim her heart.~ *Mature content: Strong language, aggressive behaviour, sexual content etc.* Note: Don't skip past the prologue. A bit of the dialogue or description in the first half of the book may seem slightly immature; I'll have to edit that when I get the chance. Started: 31/08/18 Completed: 02/04/19

SWEET REVENGE by monica23031

The exact words he threw at my face still haunts my dreams every single night and I think I'm starting to believe him. "Wish I've never met you I was so young and stupid, no wonder no one wanted to be with you, you are just holding me down and I honestly just got bored, needed a new chapter in my life that was the main reason I did what I had to do to keep myself happy. I just don't want to lie to myself anymore. I can't do this. I need to be free for once in my life. I'm so relieved that I don't have to marry you anymore, it's like a dead weight lifted from my shoulders. JUST LEAVE! GET OUT NOW! '' I just didn't know what to do that day I way so shocked, one minute we were one big happy family and the next he throws everything we build up as a family. I should had been warned by his actions the last month that we spend together. He knew that he was my first for everything and that gave him a push on his ego. Always bragged about being my first and claiming power over the situation. I was blinded by all of his charms and I see that now, I'm so sorry I did not listen Laura, you were just trying to protect me , that's what best friends are for but I chose him and I am truly sorry. I promise I will get a way to show him that I am not just a waste of space and I am going to do it all just for me and my baby girl. **WARNING** Sexual language and mature content Read at own risk ;) https://www.buymeacoffee.com/Monicanaude

I Fell in Love with a Bad Boy by Beautiful_Tragedy8

CRINGE WARNING! First book I ever wrote on here!! -- "Sometimes the person who you are willing to take a bullet for is the person behind the gun." I stood peering over the cold lifeless body that lay before my eyes. I had always thought of death the enemy, but right now, I blessed it upon the person who is now at peace. Sometimes you don't need to be the smartest, or the fastest, but you do need to be wisest. They say the blood runs deeper than water, and I believe it, because even though the people that we love can turn on us and begin to hate us, they are only human, meaning that soon they will begin to see how short life really is and how it is not to be wasted. People who seem perfect and they look like they have no floors'; they are the people who are suffering, like I was. But I found my savior in the most uncommon place. He was able to look through my mask, he saw the cracks, and tried to fix the broken girl that hid away deep inside the girl who only wanted to be seen as 'fine'. I slowly began to find comfort and safety in him, and I did the same to him. We were two broken people becoming whole. Someone once said when you pass, if you can count your true friends on one hand you are beyond lucky, and I even though I did not like the person that lay before me, I know that he once had true friends, including me. I'm a 17 year old girl who has suffered more than any other, beginning to believe that 'Hope' was just another word the people throw around. Until I fell in love with a badboy. Trailer to the side -------------------> Made By @Laura__1 Cover made by @Beautiful_Tragedy8 Copyright 2014

I'll Make You Remember by _forbiddenkinks

I relaxed my jaw "That's it baby, take it. You thought I forgot about you fucking my best friend to get back at me?" He grabs on the back of my head forcing himself down my throat "Make it sloppy I want to see how messy you can get. Show me how sorry you are." I know he's still holding back, and I want to see how aggressive he can get, so I don't follow his orders which only strikes his anger. He raises my head up by my hair, so his dick falls out of my mouth. "How about you focus on the road" Milo smiles at me before looking back at the road, I spit on his dick before grabbing it with both hands. "You know you enjoyed seeing me ride your best friend till we both came together. We can always do a round two and you can join if you want." He presses on the gas even more going faster than before "You better make me cum before we make it home or I'll tie you up and fuck you till I think you had enough." ... Layanna is a lover at heart. After going through hell, she still takes in everyone else's sins like it's her own and wears them in her scars. Everyone knows who she is but doesn't know her real story and she keeps it from the kids she raises. All they know is what they see and how she ended up with her with her husband. Do they even know how she's surviving? Layanna falls in love for all the wrong reasons to benefit the last of her family even if that means she has to suffer.

Finding Purpose (+18) ✔️ by ZaynismRules

***this book contains suicidal thoughts and tendencies, may not be appropriate for younger audiences*** In which she looks for the purpose of life. Lily Carter's parents died in a car crash leaving her and Laura, girl was depressed long before her parents passed away and with all the problems turning up now, Lily felt more miserable - if that's even possible. With her journey to look for life's purpose and grab the small pinch of HOPE - which is ironically her second name -, will she finally snap at the pressure and finally end it all? or will a small light lit her darkened world of grief and loneliness? * "So you know. The little goth girl who gets bullied is indeed a mess. There's this mess in her head that eats her alive everyday isn't it? What to do now Kaden? Tell the whole neighborhood and recieve an award for taking out a crazy in this world?" I spit like vomit. His eyes warmed up as I finished, "Lily. It isn't like that" "What is it then? People stopped caring... they gave up, why aren't you?" I fought my tears. "Because I feel the need to care. Did Leigh hurt you? Did she hit you?" he finally noticed the unusual redness of my cheek. I don't like the way he told me he needed to care for me. I felt like an obligation, a responsibility that he is carrying and carrying leads to getting tired and when people gets tired, they give up. I don't want them to give up on me. But they will, so it's good not to make them care for me in the first place. "I never needed anyone. I stopped needing anyone before, why start now?" I uttered the words again. Why? There is nothing to fight for. No mama. No papa. No sister to love me. No one. So why would I waste my life and the time of others to fix what is already broken - and someone who doesn't want to be fixed? If I may add. Maybe I gave up. No, scratch that. I gave up a long time ago - when my parents died, my hope and purpose went away with them.

The Handsome three ( COMPLETED) by ceblack

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Starlight

"Get the fuck away from me, Leo." I lean down a little, so we're barely eye level. "You followed me to New York. Are you really that desperate?" "If you believe that my life revolves around your immature self, then your life must be sad. I fucking hate you," she responds. I twirl one of her curls between my fingers as I lean closer to her ear. "So why don't you go back to leaving, yeah?" ✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ: :･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞. 𝐙𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐚 𝐌𝐨𝐨𝐫𝐞 wanted nothing more than to waltz through life and try to get through it one step at a time. 𝐋𝐞𝐨 𝐕𝐚𝐬𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐳 and his twisted past ensured that their worlds inevitably collided years later once again. Two people entangled by 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘴. Will they survive each other? Or were they always destined to be nothing more than a temporary eclipse.