hopeless life, hopeless love
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Ongoing, First published Apr 01, 2017
"you'll never fucking be anything in this life or the next! you're a piece of shit and taken up space! I don't even know why I decided to talk your crazy, depressed, suicidal ass! I don't even know why I thought I could even love a disgusting being like you! dismiss yourself from my presence! you stupid, unlovable bitch!" He shouts at me. I swallow that burning lump in the back of my throat as I attempt to keep my steaming tears at the brim of my eyes where they lied. "I know..I know I'm unlovable..I know I'm stupid..I know I'm a piece of shit..I know I'll never be anything in this life..or the next..I know I'm just taken up space..I know I'm disgusting..but you already fucking knew this! whenever you told me I was beautiful I reminded you how disgusting I am! whenever you told me I was smart I told you I was stupid! whenever you told me you was happy that you had me in your life, I told you I was taken up space! and when you told me you loved me!" I screamed as my timid voice cracked. "when you fucking told me that you loved me..I told you that I was unlovable. Do you remember that? Do you remember when I told you I didn't deserve love. happiness..or peace? you remember that? I do. Do you remember when I told you no one would ever love me because I'm the most ugliest, craziest, depressed, idiotic human being. Do you remember when I told you everyone in my life always leave me.. Do you remember when you said you'll stay? because I do. Do you remember that."

A girl in this world looking for her purpose to live. you shouldn't feel drained and empty at the age of 16. you shouldn't feel trapped. you shouldn't want to die. you shouldn't cry for hours everyday and pull out your hair and have thoughts of harming yourself. so why does she? myanna has been through so much and gave up on everything she loved along the way, including her own identity. when she meets a mysterious boy who believes he can change this broken girl, he soon finds out it's not true opposites attract
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