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I Still Love Him

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creative_hornian

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It all started like a movie.

It ended like a storm. 

But I still clung to the memories.

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This book will take you through the emotional roller coaster of an experience I did go/am going through with a boy that is a big part of my life. 
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This is a fictional story based on real life events in my life with a boy who's name is not used in this story. 

This piece is written by me and with my ideas. I sincerely hope you enjoy and hopefully relate at least a bit to this story I will work hard on and try hard to finish. 

Thank you for reading.All Rights Reserved

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