Euphoria (Phan)
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Complete Sun, Apr 9, 2017<5 mins
The deep gray clouds cover the sun and seem to extend as far as the eye can see casting a dark shadow over everything. It's the kind of sky that wouldn't be out of place in a depressing painting or Dan's mind for that matter.
I don't know how to do descriptions. This is a Phan fiction. I warn you that it is mildly depressing, and if you were looking for fluff this is not the right fan fic. If you don't like that type of stuff then don't read it. You can absolutely skip this part of the description.
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