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Regal [Sebastian De Poitiers] {editing}

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A quiet knock shook her out of her gloom. 
She hesitated on the door knob, before pulling it open. 

Bash. 

His eyes shone in the candle light, and yet he could find no words. He pushed open the door haphazardly, melding his lips to hers in an instant. Her door clicking shut behind him. He pressed her against the worn oak, his hands remaining steadfast on her waist. It was everything he wanted and everything he couldn't have.All Rights Reserved

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"He was chaos. She was calm. Together, they were the storm I couldn't stop reading." - Wattpad Reader ⚠️ Disclaimer / Trigger Warnings This story is a work of fiction intended for mature audiences (18+). It contains themes and content that may be triggering to some readers, including: • Explicit sexual content / intimacy • Strong language • Physical violence • Street fighting / blood • Mental health struggles (panic attacks, depression, PTSD) • Suicidal ideation / attempt • Alcohol use Reader discretion is strongly advised. If you find any of these themes upsetting, please take care of yourself first.