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Memory Jar

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Reads 208
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Parts 11
Time 49m

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"Stop doing this! You're better than that!"
"You're wearing that? What kind of animal are you?"
"This isn't healthy! Stop this instant!"
"You are not a barbarian! Is this how we raised you to be?
"Stop this!"








"Your gaining bad habits this way... please... is there for you to stop? Can't you just... stop?"
"..."
"Please..."
"Why can't I just stop? It's not as easy as you'd expect."

This was just one of the many stories I had within my memory jar. I couldn't keep them all in my head, so I just decided to put my thoughts into jars. What? They keep them locked up tight.All Rights Reserved

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Before I Go by StacyHanvy

I am Morgan Feldman, and I struggle with depression and anxiety. My bad days outnumber my good days and my empty days rule my life. I've created a list. A bucket list, some might call it- because my days are numbered. A list of all the things that I want to accomplish in my senior year of high school, things I want to do before I go... because at the end of the year, Morgan Feldman will be no more. Warning: This story mentions and/or talks about in-depth: anxiety, depression, bullying, suicidal thoughts, cutting, suicide attempts, eating disorders, and possible other triggers. Reader discretion is advised. (Total wordcount around 50,000 words. This story has short chapters, with the average chapter length consisting of about 1,023 words.)

Mirror by Minnsta

On the brink of self-destruction, Leila struggles to stay afloat with little to no time before she's devoured by her conniving mind. In an effort to save herself once and for all, Leila stands against her strongest obstacle: herself. *** "It was only ever us!" They screamed "When everyone looked the other way; when they turned a blind eye on your tears-on your blood-I was there! I saved us! I saved you!" "No, that's not...stop talking," I pleaded, every word adding more pressure around my head. Draven's breath, suddenly inches away from my face, burns the surface of my skin. "Stop lying to yourself and accept reality for once. You and I both know you'd be dead without me. You should be thanking me. I helped you more than anyone else has." I snapped my eyes to theirs-furious yet overflowing with disappointment. "You'd be dead without me," I seethed through clenched teeth and furrowed eyebrows. "That's the only reason you ever "helped" me stay alive." *** This story contains sensitive and triggering mental health material. Please read at your own risk. #7 in Manipulative 11•9•24 #8 in Manipulative 11•7•24

Save Me If You Wish (Completed) by RandomWriter230

"Two people can cause severe damage to one person's life." ××× Cassie, a 17-year-old girl. Heart torn in two. Mind damaged. Perception faltering. The death of a couple loved ones, her mother's physical and emotional abuse, rape, and many other tragedies lead to a change in her thoughts. Several diary entries later, she decides that if her life doesn't get any better by New Year's Eve, she is going to commit suicide. - Mike, an 18-year-old guy. Nobody really knows what goes on in his life. Everyone just knows him for his good looks and kind heart. When the two of them finally meet, will Cassie's mind continue to break day by day, or will they change each other's views on life?

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People say 'oh my anxiety is so bad.' try living in this body for an hour. ~~~ This is an experiment. I don't know how it's going to work out but here it is. Once something is written in a chapter story wise. It will not get changed. So if there's something that I wrote. It's there. There's no going back. I will admit that this is definitely going to be an interesting one. Enjoy

The Selfless Me by Blo0ki

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I wasn't special, I wasn't a marine or a scientist sent here from earth to study Pandora, I was a behaviorist-some say behaviorists are scientists too; but the brain isn't made up of mathematics and hope, it's like the roots of trees. Forever speaking but unheard. I study people's brains and their behavior. I don't look at it with hope and faith. I'm nothing special, not really. When I was accepted to help with Project Pandora, I was exhilarated. This was my big break, something to get me out there. I never expected for it to spiral into my life unprofessionally-become personal, emotional. That I would have to fight in a war between man and alien, choose between my own people and a clan of beings that accepted me-welcomed me, trained and made me one of them. This wasn't supposed to become personal, but it did.