Dark Room

I Know you know the feeling. Being alone, not having anybody understands or know how it feels to be drained and trapped inside your body. Being a stranger with yourself. Trapped inside that void that's dark, suffocating and warm it feels safe. It's been there with you all your life. It's all that you know but you can't stay inside. It's not safe, it could kill you, it's toxic but you also don't know how to let go. But she knows, she knows. That's all Chichi has ever known to do. Sleeping on the bed made out of guilt and shame and staying trapped inside that Room with the keys she holds on to. But don't know how to use it.
Letting her body float in that air surrounded by all the doubts and the self hatred. Feeling of not being scared of dying but living. Feeling of wanting to be free from her head, wanting to escape that room. She shuts herself and closes all doors. Cry herself to sleep, feeling as if she can't be loved, hating herself for existing. She wants to be free, wants to know what it means to love someone and to have trust to not be broken and damaged.
Upon meeting HIM. Someone who knows and understands her. Can they both let each other in? Can they both learn to love and heal each other the right way? Being able to trust someone, love someone and to be able to find herself and escape from this hell that's all she longed for.
That's all I long for.