Still My Beating Heart (discontinued)
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  • Time 2h 40m
Ongoing, First published Apr 09, 2017
Mature
"We can't do this. No matter how much....how much I want to.....we can't. It's wrong and-" he grabs me and he kisses me again. I was about to give in again and finally let him win and let him have me but my senses told me to back off. I pull back again, gasping for air. He lets out a groan as I do so. 

And then I slap him. It wasn't enough to knock him back but it was enough to startle him. He looks at me, wide eyed. 

"Don't kiss me again." I say softly, gulping. I start blinking quickly and my palms get sweaty. I was starting to feel guilty. 

"Why? Because you like it or because you're scared you'll fall for me?" He smirks, leaning back against the motorcycle. All the guilt goes away when he flashes me that smug smirk.

"Both." 

*******

Shepard Darien has homophobic parents that want nothing more than for Shepard to get a girlfriend instead of staying inside all the time and reading. 

He's a senior, straight A's and always the quiet one, the one that doesn't take risks but when  badboy and rebel, Blake Martinez, rides up and offers a ride on his black motorcycle, he risks it and hops on behind him.

 Though later on, he realises that he's risking more than just a minute or two of freedom with the green eyed guy with the motorcycle.
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