Help Me
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Ongoing5m
Last published Wed, Apr 12, 2017
TRIGGER WARNING: Contains mentions of self-harm and suicide, may contain graphic descriptions of self-harm.
Juli Faber has been trying to get into her school's Study Abroad in London program since her first year. When the beginning of her senior year rolls around, she finally receives word that she's been accepted to go for her final semester of college. But, while she is able to escape the confines of her tiny university, her feelings of isolation and loneliness remain. Running into the one person who has unknowingly saved her several times over may either turn her life around or cause her to descend even further.
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